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great brother

2011-03-15T16:01:00.001+08:00

oh great . i got another brother =)

a nice brother that can play with me =)

it's nice to have a big brother.

somehow i feel that wk n bro is not as close as i first knew them.

i don't know why i felt this way but somehow sixth sense told me so.

perhaps i was wrong.

bored

2011-03-10T15:57:00.000+08:00

life is seriously freaking boring right now.

i dunno wat i m searching or living for..

everything is so screwed up.

i seriously dun like the way i m now.

there's no motivation for me to excel in everything.

but yet i still have to carry on with what im doin in everything.

i don't like to go home.

but i still ahve to go home.

i don't like to go school either.

but i still need to go school.

can anyone please tell me what im supposed to do?

逃避吗？

2011-03-05T01:30:00.001+08:00

想通了。。日子似乎好过一些。
什么都不想。。
每天一觉醒来，做自己一天该做的事。。
上学。。
和朋友吃饭，鬼混。。
补习赚更多钱。。
到游乐场所闲晃。。。
把自己搞得很累。
然后回到家再一头倒下去睡到天亮。。
这样其实也不错。

自由自在，没有烦恼，乐在其中。
或许这也是逃避所有问题的最好方法吧。。

神與魔

2011-02-23T01:48:00.000+08:00

你相信神的存在嗎？
如果信，那麽你相信惡魔的存在嗎？
還是兩者皆非，那是不是主張無神論？

我相信神，也相信魔鬼的存在。
在這世界上，永遠都是正邪不兩利。
神的存在就是爲了抵抗魔鬼的惡勢力。
有好人必然就會有壞人。
好人是神，是上天派來造福世界。
而壞人是魔鬼，是地獄派來的破壞者。

好人壞人，這因人而定。
然而，神與魔是不是因人而定呢？
不管是好人還是壞人，最終還是會有終結的一天。
然而，神與魔會不會有終結的一天？

或許人就是需要一點證據，一點事故和一點時間才會相信有神的存在。
對於我而言，這一切都發生了，所以我相信神。
如果沒有信仰，或許我已陷入魔鬼的煉獄中。
只要相信，神依然會眷顧你，將你擁入他的懷中。

對於無神論者，信也好不信也罷，只要不褻瀆神明。
只要有一天你願意相信他，神還是會保佑你。
不相信並不代表不存在，是因爲抗拒接受。
當然也不能阻止魔鬼惡意地傷害你，慢慢地將你吞噬，
或許也儅這一切發生時，無神論者才會選者相信神。

sentosa valentine's eve

2011-02-13T01:33:00.001+08:00

met up with wk.

he brought a friend along.

went sentosa to watch cny performance.

saw daddy there. what a coincidence. ^^

this friend of his was funny.

he did the same stupid thing as me, keeping a hamster in the cupboard, when he was small.

after that we went for sushi. yeah. i love sushi =)

then followed on by kbox with drinking session.

we clique well.i dun like the other guy. he seems cocky.

well, i should not say this. but somehow i just feel this way.

we shared barcardi. however, it seems tt wk's friend and me was the one who kept drinkin?

whatever. im glad that i hold my liquor rather well. otherwise i would be drunk.

pray to heaven.

2011-02-11T01:43:00.000+08:00

called daddy for lunch but daddy was not free.

he got to work and told me to go over to his house to help his mum.

so i headed there at night to help auntie.

sis was there too.. but stayed for only a while.

soon, daddy was back.

he was damn hungry and gobbled up the packet of rice on the table.

poor daddy.... he said that he didnt have anything for today.

he wanted to meet me for lunch but... he's sorry.

stayed over at his place as both of us were really tired after the praying.

daddy;'

2011-02-08T01:23:00.000+08:00

daddy 說：大人的事你小孩不必管那麼多啊。。。
我又沒有管很多，只是我想不通。一時接受不來。

daddy 說：那你在乎什麼啊？
因爲他們是我最重要的人，所以我才那麽在乎。可是又能怎樣呢？

daddy說：晚輩的不能做太多，所以不要想。
對阿。。即使做再多，也於事無補。
daddy說：don't think too much.U can't change anything anymore
我知道。這一切都發生好久好久。
一時之間，我还是很難接受
或許再給我一點點時間。

既然事實是殘酷的。。
daddy說：Be Cool.
所以，我是應該繼續保持沉默，對嗎？還是客客氣氣的？

daddy說：不然你還能想要改變什麼？
我不知道。我真的不知道。也不想知道

或許daddy是對的。just remain the old self.
也就像阿伯說的：什麽都不要去想，想多了會發瘋。每天起來做你該做的事就好了。
當時阿伯說的話一句刺進了心坑裏。
頓時閒，我哽咽，我落淚。慶幸那裏一片漆黑。

或許我真得很快就要發瘋了

2011 cny

2011-02-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

It's chinese new year but i'm not happy at all.

i can't believe that this is what you have for me.

why can't you just think a litttle bit more ?

why can't you just spend that little more time ?

is this really that difficult? is it really that torturous??

if you don't like it, fine. just scram as fas as you can.

stop all the pretence. - busy is just an excuse. an utter lousy excuse.

fine.fine.fine. you spoilt everything.

I so wanted to hate you. but i can't.

是你吗？

2010-11-23T01:22:00.000+08:00

期待。。
喜悅。。
心動。。
感動。。

無法形容的快樂。。再此暖和了一顆冰冷的心。。
歷經了許多挫折，人生的起起落落。
熾熱的心被澆滅了，也變得心力交瘁。。

對任何的事和物也只能抱著
既来之，则安之的態度。。
期望，希望根本就沒有它們存在的價值
更不用説是興奮與快樂。。

算了吧。隨你吧。你想怎樣就怎樣。。
這一切我根本就不在乎！！反正心也死了。
快樂。。再也不屬於我的。
又或者它從來就不屬於我。

心裏面的這些話從來都不想讓任何人知道。。
當然微笑就是最好的保護色。。

曾以爲破碎的心已無法體會到
什麽是快樂。。一份發自内心的快樂。。
什麽是激動。。一份讓人落淚的激動。。

如今，這種似曾相似的感覺又悄悄的。。
鑽進了冷落的心窩裏。。
只有你有如此神奇的力量，如此超凡的魅力。。

讓這顆心不在感到無比的冷漠。。
讓眼淚再度從迷惘的眼眶中落下
讓臉頰再度感受到眼淚的濕與熱。。

被快乐给遗忘了

2010-11-09T01:15:00.000+08:00

我找不到快乐，也被快乐给遗忘了。
当你不快乐时，不管怎么玩，你都不会有任何欢乐的感觉。
当你不快乐时，时间有如度日如年。
当你不快乐时，你的笑容也显得特别的虚伪。

shit u

2010-06-30T13:43:00.003+08:00

Nice to bully right?

Nice to play with right?
Nice to quarrel with right?

Nice to make fun of right?

Nice to throw sarcasm right?

DAMN.

记住这十句

2010-06-26T03:37:00.002+08:00

第一句
如果我們之間有1000步的距離
我會走完999步
剩下的1步由你來完成

第二句
通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人
才是真正愛你的人

第三句
付出真心　才會得到真心　卻也可能傷得徹底
保持距離　就能保護自己　卻也注定永遠寂寞

第四句
有時候　不是對方不在乎你　而是你把對方看得太重

第五句
朋友就是把你看透了　還能喜歡你的人

第六句
就算是believe　中間也藏了一個lie

第七句
真正的好朋友
並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題
而是在一起　就算不說話
也不會感到尷尬

第八句
沒有一百分的另一半　只有五十分的兩個人

第九句
為你的難過而快樂的　是敵人
為你的快樂而快樂的　是朋友
為你的難過而難過的　就是那些　該放進心裡的人

第十句
冷漠　有時候並不是無情　只是一種避免被傷害的工具

Hols.

2010-06-26T02:48:00.002+08:00

Simply love travelling.

Relax. Eat. Play. Shop. n Grow Fat. lols

Best. Drinks are really cheap.

I Love It.

Red Wine. Everything Gonna be OK.

It's Detoxification TIME.

I totally agrees.

We think differently.

We have different perception.
I like the way I'm now.

Whatever will be, will be.

Whatever it's yours, it's yours.

Sin Tua

2010-06-21T01:33:00.001+08:00

Spending two days at Sin Tua is fun.

People thr are v friendly.

I think my Hokkien needs to improve even more.

and I want to learn Canto!

bday bash.

2010-06-10T02:19:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah. HAPPY HAPPY 21ST!!!

Went back indo for hols.

Went resort. Nice. Pretty. Relax.

Celebrated my bday. party. dinner.

Didn't know I gt so many relatives.

Handfuls of nephews n nieces.

Best- my nieces watch Sailormoon too in the era.

Received many hongbaos.

Many Handbags! -.-

Y gif me so many handbags.Pierre Cardin. Hermes.

THANKS ALL FOR THE EVERYTHING.

I gotta cake phobia. Wish. Blow Cut.Cut.Cut. Eat.Eat.Eat.

OMG.

Gained weight. Many Many Kgs. Terrible. -.-

Looking forward for sun.

See how ppl look like. HAHA.

Ms/Mr Well dressed!

DRAGONFRUIT

2010-05-18T22:47:00.001+08:00

OMG. STUNNED.

NEW LOOK

2010-05-16T21:16:00.003+08:00

YAY!!! so happy today...

went shopping...hohohoho...

bought all the things i want!!!muahaha..

after soooo long..

I'm happy. The shop also happy. my wallet also very 'happy'.

Wahaha.. I bought my wallet !!! n..... s1 bought too... -.o Awww!

I LOVE NEW LOOK!

Summer Romance is really damn sweet la.

Now I seriously think the Swarovski earstuds is useless..

haha. it look so normal except tt it BLINKS.

Now only left with ipod touch and my hp (waiting for recontract...)....

my bro kept saying i gt no use for ipod touch...

since both my mp3s haven spoil yet... BUT FUN LEH!

Argh!!!!! should I buy?

I realise tt everyone is asking me what bday present I want...

but I think I just bought almost everything today? lols.xx, rite?

Perhaps I should really go think hard. before I get stuffs like

ONE BIG BOTTLE OF STARS!

though it's filled with sincerity.. but I gt no place to store.

mama wld end up putting tt at one dark corner in a plastic bag.

bump on head

2010-05-14T00:27:00.002+08:00

Went to play badminton yest. FUN =)

Both arms aching this morning.

Was walking in the carpark and

I banged my head against the wall

WHICH I DIDN'T SEE.

This is freaking pain.

Went dizzy and sat down on the floor for a while.

I think I had a bump on the top of my head.

Now,I know why kids wail hysterically when they fell n knocked their head...

cause it's really very pain.

One word- suey!

Happy mama's day

2010-05-09T22:59:00.007+08:00

Yeah. get to eat all my chicken wings :)hohoho

Happy Mother's Day to all Mama.
Hope that all mama in the world had a Happy Mama's Day.
Went for a big feast @ Din Tai Fung.
ordered A LOT.100+. siao. nvm.
As we looked around,
we sat at an area where all the tables are either caucasians or foreigners ie. japanese etc.
after each table is cleared, new diners tt are directed to tt area are still foreigners. lols.

Wanted to go helix bridge after that but..
ate too full.so too tired.
end up shopping at ION.

bought my jeans. finally.
oh yeah (oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah hey..lols.)
one more things off my shopping list.
next wk shall go shopping again=)

It's over

2010-05-08T01:24:00.003+08:00

Finally exam is over.
Though I think I did like shit.
Time to play.
I should be very free now.
However, it seems that I am even busier now.

Hais.
So many things to do.
So many places to go.
So many things to buy.
So many things on my mind.
I need lots of time.
I need time to complete everything.
I need time to forget some things.
I really need time.

Vexed.Tired.Confused.

lion dance

2010-05-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

saw lion dance performance. though not performed by nam sieng but Nice.
Bravo.
Nam Sieng is awesome. Grand event.
Some Traditional stuffs are really nice.

I should study for now.but nth goes into my mind.

i dun like you!

2010-04-30T00:46:00.000+08:00

idiot.miserable.bang wall. go die.

things i want=)

2010-04-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

I want nobody nobody but u... u... u...
slowly u'll be mine=)
earrings.wallet.itouch.phone.skates.bag.Hols.play.

need to go get many things,many things done n fixed.
i'd been a good girl =p
i miss chicken wings.

Troubles

2010-04-21T03:03:00.004+08:00

I really need to sort out everything after exams.

Too many things on my mind.

Too many things for me to bother.

Some things seems to stuck down there forever.

Though I do wish that they would just go away on its own.

The farther I tried to chase them away, the nearer they would love to approach me.

I think I really need some help regardless it's good or bad.

Perhaps I should just face it and stop shunning.

For now, I shall mug and stop wasting my time.

SICK

2010-04-15T18:13:00.002+08:00

had been slpin late recently.

3am. 5am. 8am.

at this rate i'm going...

i would never recover from my illness!!

sorethroat, cough, running nose...

PLS GET LOST!

wallet!!!

2010-04-14T23:50:00.003+08:00

Cn't believe that I actually forsake the free mayday concert tickets because of my report..

OH wells.. that's just too bad... if it's tml then I will go for it..

on the wallet search　＝）
Bonia having sale. so tempted to buy but designs nt very nice.

Pierre cardin new design not too bad but shall go search properly after exams..

Yeah ..so looking forward to itouch =)

n many many things. during hols =)

can go on a shopping n hols spree..

random

2010-04-11T15:05:00.001+08:00

生病。烦恼。郁闷。压力。忧郁。难过。寂寞。无聊。无奈。

zirca

2010-04-03T14:55:00.003+08:00

Decided not to buy bonia wallet anymore.
I want go shop for nice leather wallet.
My pierre cardin spoiling. sobs. =(
and my dumb dumb ck watch kept kanna scratched.Sian.

NVM. I shall go shopping after exams... HAHAHAHA
and pxxxxxxg...=)
one more term paper to complete.
Somebody help me!

Kept pressing the wrong key on my hp.
and ended up calling the wrong ppl.
sry if i did miss called you.

zirca was fun.
many youngsters there.
and many ah bengs. haha.
many guys shuffling. lightstick dance was cool.
next time should try. lols!
oh wells. there's five funny fellow down there

1. There is this yellow shirt guy who was sitting alone next to our table..and he kept turning to stare . weird. yucks.
2. There is this old malay guy who was like revolving around ... and he look so...PERVERT! shoo.
3.There is this guy who stand behind me and staring.. at least for 5s before leaving.or maybe he just want the aircon to cool himself down.
4. There is this long,coarse-haired guy who was trying to 插一脚 on the dance stage while the others were happily dancing there.HAHA. super hilarious.
5. There is this 19 year old angmoh who came to crap with us and oh wells....trying to make FRIENDs.hha

All thanks to that angmoh.. we discover the dark side of Clark quay... some angmohs or perhaps some ppl actually go there to look for transexual hookers or maybe hookers...omg! TRANSEXUAL. . and I REALLY cannot believe this. Doesn't this only happen in Geylang?

The security guard at zirca is quite nice-looking. but chicken wings are even yummier !
xx said I had a tinge for bengs (which I dun think so)and eating chicken wings at the club.

LUNAR was ..... old.
REBEL was... havoc and smelly.

New discovery-
Typical ah bengs seems to have fringe.
have their Polo's collar up.
love to walk as if the road is theirs.
have drawers.
haha.

love?

2010-03-26T01:43:00.003+08:00

Feel like getting so many things recently!!!
Had the irritating feeling of MONEY NT ENOUGH!
Some of the things I want are almost impossible.HAHA.

I want an itouch! I want to shiseido! I want to dye hair!
I want an E72 or blackberry! I want to buy a Bonia wallet!
I want NDSI! I want a pair of new skates!
I want a Universal Annual Pass! I want a car!
I want so many many things..... AH!!! A BOMB!

At this rate I'm spending, I would be dead soon.
I think it's a wise choice to get a rich husband.
But rich husband~~~ usually they are uncles.
[erm. I considered 25 and above-->uncles(no offence) coz my xiaoshu is only 25? and my xiaojiu like 32? not very old.. but calling them shu shu and jiujiu somehow do affect me.]
If not, their parents are rich. But what's the point? spending parents' money.

Oh wells, I think it's still better to drain myself rather than depending on a rich husband.
What's more, guys are not that reliable and trustworthy after all.

I need a guardian angel! Protect me from danger. Take away my worries and troubles. Grant me my wishes (perhaps that's more of a fairy godmama). Listen to my sorrows!!! Bring joy to me:)

Random quote: love is kinda blind. U won't know when you fall in love with the person or why did you fall in love with that person. Somehow, you behave idiotically and do stupid things for no reason.

I don't get it...perhaps when I fall in love then everything would fall in place. I think falling in love is hard but getting hurt by or falling out of love is much easier.

Deleting in progress!!!!!!!
Stop recovering the deleted memory!!!
This is never ending. Agony.

Recess wk

2010-03-09T21:36:00.007+08:00

最近好多事要做！！！
好多好多报告要赶！但没关系。。
一切就快要过去了。。加油！！
只要再多一下下，一切就会告一段落。
放了一个星期的假，
总觉得还没休息够。
这一个星期，玩得好凶，
当然功课还是没被忽略掉。

Clubbing真的很好玩。
一个星期就去了三次。
可是。。还是要看是去什么地方和什么人去。(有的人超high的！)
Zirca很棒！而且无时无刻都超high 的。
无意中还有free show 观赏。。shuffle 再回蒙一笑..哈哈哈
DXO的live band 还蛮不错的。
重点是无限量饮料供应，饮料里的酒精超少的，
喝了十杯还是没有任何一丝的醉意.
对了，那里的鸡翅膀好好吃！
BUTTER FACTORY SUX！

是时候收拾贪玩的心，努力K书！！！
可是似乎好难哦！
天啊..怎么办？！救救我吧。我该怎么开始？

原来要忘记一些事和人，一点都不简单。
你越是刻意想要忘记，它却会刻意的浮现。
天下无难事，我一定会做到的，一定会把这一切都删除掉。

Back to indo cny

2010-02-22T03:54:00.006+08:00

yeah.. ^^v
I'm so happy. Once again,I'm back to indo for chinese new year.
Been seeing my friends returning back to malaysia for New year and somemore they looked like they enjoyed themselves a lot.esp with fire crackers and fire works. though i know THEY REALLY ARE.This makes me super envy sia!!! but nvm..
since i didn't get the chance to go back on the first few days of new year...It's never too late to go back right now becoz NEW YEAR HAVEN'T END!
There's still celebration going on and... ppl will still gif u hongbaos:)

hohoho.. get a lot of Hongbaos... and the best thing is ..
rupiah had gone up. though i dun haf the intention to change it to sgd.
get to eat lots of yummy food and cny goodies. think growing even fatter liao.
feel as if tt i stuffed 6 days of food into my poor stomach in two days. SO GUILTY.
and of course I GET to see my firecrackers and fireworks... HAD GREAT FUN!

i think i'm damn humchee la. I wasn't DARING enough to go and light up the firecrackers coz I'm SCARED OF FIRE!!! (thou my 8 yr old cousin dare!) BUT...
i still play with the dumbass fireworks.. PRETTY:)
OH WELLS... Y DUN SG ALLOW fireworks n crackers?

This is a super HIGH CNY tt I ever had. think this will be the first and perhaps the last?

Went clubbing with my uncle and aunt.(coz I wasn't told that we were goin to club!)
I was in horrible TSHIRT, SHORT and SANDALS! though the entrance wrote strictly NO SHORTS,SANDALS.
Luckily, all thanks to my uncle coz he's a VIP. so I passed with this idiotic kiddish look and gt a reserved table too thou the place was damn crowded.I looked TOTALLY like a kid while everyone else in thr was in a clubbin outfit. (want to fish also cnnt la. jkin.)
This kiddish look made me dun dare to step into the dance floor.Even if I feel like dancing...

NVM.. we ended dancing at our own table. HAHA.SUPER HIGH. My aunt and uncle were like havin HOT dance. Lots of Caucasians there and they were at least 100x high-er than us! They were like TANGO-ing at the dance floor la.
Drank a lot! coz the atmosphere was good with live band, drink was cheap and that i need nt worry who will send me hm if i were drunk.. so it's safe enuf to drink:)

think I drank like perhaps 4 glass of ILLUSION=SEX ON THE DRIP @ clinic C and perhaps ard 7 mugs of heineken? the waitress keep comin to cheer with us.

almost DROP DEAD! think i was almost drunk but haven't lose my consciousness. i still know wat was goin on ard me.(at least now i know my limits, so xx fear nt! I'll protect u!)

I dunno y i took my uncle's hp and i thot i lose my hp.

I thot i din took out my contacts before goin to slp but i actually did jus tt somehow I couldn't recall when i took it out.
I was almost dozing off when i was cleaning myself up.

Everyone else claimed that I was drunk thou I dun think I was. (perhaps drunkards dun admit tt they are drunk.)

I was told by my aunt tt her baby daughter (she's only two yrs old) loved tiger beer and kept dranking non-stop. Though she took the can by mistake and the adults din realise tt.

LOLS. COOL.PRO.
Just realise tt my aunt go married like ard 21? wth. so damn young.and realise tt my paternal side smallest uncle was like only 25 yrs old and I called in xiaoshu?!and his gf the most older than me by 2-4 years? this is so -.-''
Now, i think i know why I always think ppl who are perhaps 25 n above are uncle to me liao. (xx: i started laughing when my xiaoshu shuai his fringe! he was damn puzzled. tell u ar. 'DAMN SHUAI'!)

I simply love clubbin.I know this isn't a good sign.I also realise tt I'd been drinking a lot recently and that the amt of liquor i cn hold is increasing enormously.It's good in the sense tt.. it's hard for ppl to get me DRUNK.hoho. but.... too much alcohol is bad for health..SERIOUSLY, I think I should ctrl myself and stay away from liquor but... ITS HARD!

DUN CARE LE LA. JUST DRINK. gonna go to DFS to stock up more @ home:)

jb 之旅

2010-02-08T03:38:00.008+08:00

好开心哦!!! 再度的和亲爱的xx到JB去了。。
首先，本人要在这里向亲爱的致谢。
谢谢你当我的随身马币提款机！
虽然你说你有在养小白脸的feel因为我卖你付。。但。。
要不是有你，我想我可要刷卡了。。亲爱的，谢咯！ <33

买了好多东西哦！！！只能说。。
价廉物美，满载而归，心情愉快，荷包大出血！
算一算，星期天好像大概消费了马币三位数的一半。
看起来似乎很多但算一下新币的话，也还好。

虽然一旁有人一直在笑我卖东西的样子
但我似乎好像并没有因此而手软。。
到结尾时还买的更凶。。
我学会一件事，就是想买就买！！！
不要等下一次再回头来买，因为到时就不会再有你很喜欢的东西了！！

星期天扫来的货还真是得来不易啊。。
还蛮衰的，想要买的颜色，尺寸等
不是没有新货就是只省下橱窗上摆放的那一个。。
这难道是天意吗？是要我省钱？还是要我另寻新欢？

逛了一天，买了很多。
当然对于服务员的态度，我只能说人靠衣装。
我们确实穿得没怎样，一副小孩子样，
但这并不表示我们买不起，我们就必须遭受你们这些服务烂透的服务员的冷眼！
店面越是越小的，服务员的态度越是烂到无话可说。
你们要是把我惹毛了，我就要你好看！
当然，也有让我非常满意的服务员。
店面越是越大的，服务好像也比较好。
这应该就是他们成功的地方。

星期天的JB只能说是ah bengs 和ah lians 的解放日，
当然俊男美女也不少。。虽然爱甩头发的男生还是比较多。。
哈哈哈。。
对了，男生act cute真的有点恶心。。但有蛮好笑的。哈哈

和亲爱的享受了一顿超丰盛的晚餐。
这件日本料理店的料理。。赞！！
我们两个人就吃了差不多70马币。。
有主菜，刺身，寿司等。。
在店里看到一对情侣拿着金香小熊花束，
超漂亮，超可爱的。
如果有人送我的话，我一定超开心的！
或许我会。。。。

想说就偷拍一下金香小熊花束，当作纪念。。
但那位女生超吝啬的，把花移开，让我们连偷拍的机会也没有。
小姐，你有必要这样吗？好看的东西不是该和别人分享吗？
更何况我们又不是要占为己有。。
JB之旅就暂时告一段落咯。。哈哈。。

想说阿。
对于一些无名氏的举动，只能说他们确实很无聊。
善者不来，来者不善。
无名氏有必要匿名到别人的部落格留言之后，
再道个歉就当作什么事就没了吗？
对于无名氏的举动，只有懦弱两个字可以形容。
以真实的身份评论难道有那么难吗？
或许对爱躲在黑暗一角的无名氏来说，
这早已是一种习惯。
又或许是无名氏根本就缺乏勇气和胆量，
还是害怕得自己的愚昧之谈会成为他人的笑柄？
这或许也只有无名氏自己最了。

不管怎样。最讨厌的就是偷鸡摸狗的人，
尤其是那些躲在黑暗中伺机别人的恶魔。
你在明，他们在暗。
暗地里捅你一刀，你也不会知道是那个浑球。

好人坏人

2010-02-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

心情好低落。
好人真的好难做。算了。我是坏人，行了吧？
心理上的不平衡越来越严重，好害怕有一天会失去平衡，整个人也就随即发疯。
我需要一个诉苦的人，可是又有谁能让当我的倾诉者呢？我好烦，可是没人能了解。
可是我却不想让任何人觉得我在博取同情。
我更不需要任何人可憐，我只需要一对能聆听我心事的耳朵。

脸上的笑容是我的伪装，是我的保护色。
我害怕再受到伤害，所以我隐藏自我。

想当个年轻妈妈

2010-02-04T14:47:00.005+08:00

昨天偶然的在地铁车厢内看到了一位年轻的妈妈，
抱着应该也只有两三个月大的宝宝？

说那位妈妈年轻应该还不够，倒不如说她是个漂亮、年轻、有型的贵妇。
霎时间，脑海里浮现了一个不该有的想法。
其实，当个年轻的妈妈也不错。还挺酷的！
而且宝宝又那么的可爱。但重点是绝对不能沦落为黄脸婆。

我知道这个想法有点荒唐也来得很难突然。自己也觉得自己好白痴
当然，想归想。。自己也知道这是不可能的。
最起码在接下来的五年里绝对不会发生。因为。。。
我还没毕业。。更还没为事业打拼。觉得自己一事无成。

至少让我在社会上绕了一圈过后再把我绑起来。

当了几个月的家教，我只能说。。。
我真的好像开始好喜欢小孩。。
他们真的好可爱，好天真。
常常会和我说一些有的没的，
而且偶尔还会把他们亲手画的画送给我。
看到他么这样子，我也不忍心骂他们。

他们有时也会说我喜欢补习又或者说，
如果你是我学校的老师就好了。。
我听了心里也暗爽。
当然，看到他们的成绩有进步我也替他们感到开心。
至少我对他们的努力并没有白费，
他们的父母也么有白白浪费了宝贵的金钱。
偶尔，他们把我教的东西给忘了，我不禁会感到有点失落。
是我对他们的要求太高了吗？还是我只不过想不我的工作做好呢？
我不知道。。
我想应该或许是我遇到的学生都很乖，所以我的恋童症更严重了吧？
又或许我是打从心里的喜欢小孩呢？
我也不知到。。

最近对周遭的是越来越不解。
对于许多事，许多人，他们所做的事，所说的话，
我都想不通其中的原因或目的。
是应该不去理会还是应该努力的去了解呢？
如果特意的去理会，但最后自己却受到伤害。。又或者事情并不能顺着自己的意。
那不会是自讨没趣呢？又让自己难过呢？
但若有不去理会，到最后却失去了本该属于自己的东西，
那不会得不偿失吗？

我不知道。。觉得人怎么那么复杂？就不能单纯一点吗？
还是这个世界本来就是这样,只是我一直把自己锁在自己的鸟笼里。。还没看清楚。。
或许吧。
如果世界本来就不单纯，而每个都把自己伪装起来保护自己。
那伪装真的是最好的保护色吗？
卸下面具就不会感到疲累吗？不会感到自己很虚伪吗？
难道卸下面具就不能能保护自己吗？
这。。我也不知道答案。

最近觉得好失落，对一些事情也好失望。
做什么事也好像做不好。。笨手笨脚的。
我累了，好想好好的休息一下。
好想让自己人间蒸发几天，什么都不管，就一直这样的睡着。。。
直到休息够了，直到自己想通了。
但这只不过是天方夜谭。
因为我得做的事。。真的太多。太多了。。

希望

2010-01-18T16:32:00.003+08:00

当你不在奢望些什么时，得到的收获却无比的大。
当你不在盼望些什么时，得到的希望却无比的高。
当你不在希望些什么时，得到的惊喜却无比的大。

就让一切顺其自然，
是你的，终究还会是你的。
即使没有做些什么，神明也会冥冥中保佑你。

或许这也是一个好开始，
最起码路人甲这个名号已不存在。

困扰我许久的问题，至少有点头绪。
最起码我得到的答案不再是以往的哪一些：
“故事是虚构的”，“这些人物并不存在”，“我不知道”。。

原来善财童子的道行比莲花童子高。
原来是因为他的恩师比较多。
至于其中原因还并不知所以然。
但至少我现在知道不是因为谁先位列仙班，谁的道行就比较高。

to xx

2010-01-16T23:47:00.004+08:00

你，不要老是取笑我。
你，不要老是挖苦我。
你，不要老是开我玩笑。
你，不要老是拒绝我的约会。
你，不要老是上线又不理我。
你，不要老是上线就提某水果。

你！你！你！！！
你，小心有报应！

思念

2010-01-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

思念。。終究還是會奏效的。
思念。。是一股神奇的力量。

missing u

2010-01-10T02:37:00.008+08:00

簡單的幾句話。。
也能讓我心滿意足。
這。。
到底是怎麽一回事？

就到此爲止吧。
不要再奢望些什麽。。
就讓一切歸零。
把想念通通都丟掉。

或許有一天。。被捨棄的想念。。
會被拾起。。
但我想。。
當這份想念被拾到時。。
一切都太遲了。

我缺少了勇氣，有誰能讓我勇敢一點？
我想得到幸福，又有誰能給我我要的幸福?

HAPPY NEW YR

2010-01-06T00:52:00.002+08:00

新的一年，新的希望。

我希望，世界和平。
我希望，世界不會有末日。
我希望，身邊的人都能幸福快樂。
我希望，我能夠事事順利。
我希望，我不會再想你了。
我希望，我能夠擁有幸福和快樂
我希望，我能夢想成真。

吳小姐，生日快樂。
Hui Min，Happy Birthday.

sky

2009-12-13T03:06:00.003+08:00

我真的很想忘記，永遠的把這一切都給忘記。
只不過心中的那扇門，始終還是不肯緊緊的関上。

或許是神明在暗地裏保佑著，
這雖然有點不可思議，但還是發生了。
我想我還是幸運的。

突如其來的出現總是讓我不知所措。
但我還是蠻喜歡這种奇妙的感覺. :)
真的好希望這種感覺一直都不會消失。

是我越來越貪心嗎？
還是我根本就不滿足？
是我一直都在欺騙自己？
還是我已經彌足深陷？

又或者這只不過是個過渡期？
時間久了，一切就會淡掉。
心中的那份回憶也會慢慢地被遺忘。

我不知道，我真的不知道。
混亂的思緒不斷地在我腦海裏徘徊，
複雜的情感不停地在我心底処遊蕩。
好討厭的感覺！好討厭現在的我。

我只知道我懂得越來越多，
我只知道我了解的並不少。

gdbye.dragon

2009-12-10T00:13:00.004+08:00

我想我真的输了。
彻底的败给你。

每一天都看到不一样的你，
我无语。

前天的你，让我惊讶。
昨天的你，让我失望。
今天的你，让我欢喜。
百感交集，不知所措。

如果不是矜持作祟，
如果不是死要面子，
我想我可以更勇敢。

再见了。

我，学会了。
我，明白了。
我，会努力的。

dragonfruit

2009-12-06T23:50:00.010+08:00

寻觅了那么久，你却不在那群人里。
觉得好失望，不禁骂自己怎么那么笨要在这里浪费时间？
这或许也只是自己的一厢情愿，执著相信一定能再一次的遇见。

期待、希望。瞬时间破灭了。
接踵而来的是失望，落空。。

“放弃吧。回家吧。即使见到了又能怎样？
你有勇气在往前一步吗？”

为什么？
为什么你偏偏要在我决定离开时，
决定彻底地把你从记忆里删除掉时，
又再一次的出现在我眼前？
（我知道这并不是你的错。）
而且是出乎意料的出现在我眼前.

你。.让我觉得。。不知所措。
是震撼？惊讶？喜悦？这我不清楚。
唯一搞清楚的是你。。
并没有我想象中的那么简单。。
你一点也不平凡。

没有勇气也就是失败的开始，
对你而言我只不过是个路人甲，
你永远都不会知道我的存在。

我想这应该也会使我最后一次看到有缘无份的你吧？
但我依然很满足了，就让我把这小小的回忆深深的藏在心底。
因为回忆是最美的。 :)

Hinting

2009-12-01T14:45:00.005+08:00

重生的感觉真好！

好想出国走一走。。

有没有人要去啊？

香港？泰国？
韩国？台湾？

我要。。
买东西，吃东西。
买东西，吃东西。
买东西，吃东西。
买东西，吃东西！

好像没有人哦。
算了。。还是默默的回家吧。

再见啦。有缘无份的异国人。

祝你幸福快乐:)

中文系似乎挺不错的。

就试试看吧。

再见啦， takashi kitamura

2009-11-05T22:51:00.005+08:00

有没有人可以告诉我，
如何硬着头皮, 不要脸?

有没有人可以告诉我，
如何勇敢一点，大胆问？

有没有人可以告诉我，
如何打开话箧子，一起聊？

有没有人可以告诉我，
如何和你交朋友，异国人？

有没有人可以告诉我，
如何把握这最后的机会，不懊悔。

2009-10-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

dedicated especially for you.

oxx
xxx
xw

haha.:D

oh my god. dragon guy

2009-10-26T20:11:00.007+08:00

我的天啊！真的好险，差一点儿就出车祸了。
或许是我太累了吧。没注意到车子。。
还好只是手撞到车旁的后视镜。。
在踏多一步出去的话。。我想现在我应该在医院了吧？

或许是因祸得福。。
茫茫人海中，我再度地遇见你。。
虽然距离很遥远，但我已经很满足了。

Dragon dance guy

2009-10-22T22:04:00.002+08:00

对于你的一切，我一概不知。
只知道你就是你，那么的独特。
你出乎意料的让我眼前一亮。
我也出乎意料的被你煞到。

真的好想再遇见你。
缘分，将注定一切。

bye to my specs

2009-10-17T23:51:00.004+08:00

So sad... I lost my specs that has been with me for more than 3 years.. didn't know my specs was so old..
I can't believe that I don't even know I dropped my specs along the way. The custom officer was laughing at me when he found out tt I just lost my specs.So malu.
I am like so blind now.

My cousin and I did something stupid at the kbox.. haha.I can't believe that she really dare. Oh wells.. like she say. I won't come back here anymore.

Hmm.. I think I am really good at PI-ing. I shouldn't put my talents to a waste. eh.. don't think this is a talent anyway. perhaps it is in some way.

Went procession today.. The uncle so funny. I should say 'kor kor' coz he say he only older by me by dunno how many yrs old. lols. Then he whether my dd is dd or kor kor.. WAHAHA.. I am so happy la.. coz he thought he is my kor kor.. Oh wells.. I do look young after all:)

porcupine

2009-09-16T22:45:00.001+08:00

人可不可以不伪装自己？

我想很难。因为。。
每个人都有不能说的秘密。
每个人都需要自己的空间。
每个人都不想受到任何伤害。
每个人都害怕坦诚相对后而遭背叛。

所以
伪装是要保护自己，并不是不坦诚。
谁都不想当刺猬，但比起受伤。。
伪装成刺猬还是比较好的选择。

不能說的秘密

2009-08-16T17:59:00.002+08:00

解釋？有必要嗎？
交代？又有需要嗎？
時機成熟了，
該知道的始終還是會知道。

知道了又如何？
不知道又如何？
日子還不是過得好好的嗎？
沒有任何一絲的打擾。

tokyo tower

2009-07-25T22:09:00.002+08:00

經一事、長一智。
我想人就是這樣。

人總是不斷地從事物中學習，
不斷的吸取經驗，
一點一點的進步，
慢慢的長大。

人生的道路總是跌跌撞撞，
有許多的不愉快，許多的不順心，
即使付出了全力，嘗盡了苦頭，仍然徒勞無功。

但還好總有些事還是能順著自己的意，
靠自己的努力，輕而易舉的達成目標。

人不害怕失敗，只怕一蹶不振。
只要永不放棄，有一天上帝還是會眷顧你的。
人不要想一步登天，因爲爬得越高，跌得越重。
只要一點一點地紮好步伐，有一天一定能鳥瞰全世界。
人不要失去后才後悔，不要把生活中的點點滴滴當成理所當然，
要懂得珍惜，因爲擁有的一切並非所以然。

只要懂得珍惜，就能擁有全世界。
只要懂得珍惜，將來不會有遺憾。
只要懂得珍惜，幸福就近在咫尺。

珍惜自己，珍惜家人，珍惜一切。

給特別的人

2009-07-14T22:27:00.003+08:00

無所不談的話題，讓我更了解你。
在一起的時候，讓我感到特別的幸福。
看著你的笑容，讓我感到加倍的溫暖。
這種感覺。。雖然有點矛盾。。
但真的好想永遠，永遠的把它鎖進心房裡。

不管是男生或女生，
只要是跟心儀的人在一起。
幸福可以那麽的簡單。

我知道。。
流言蜚語中的幸福得來不易。
所以我更珍惜和你在一起的每一刻，
珍惜這短暫的幸福。。

Swimming

2009-07-12T20:37:00.002+08:00

went swimming alone today.
feel so refreshed after 30 laps.
shagged but felt so accomplished:)

saw all kinds of ppl in the pool.
some who went there to model.
some who dunno how to swim but still act as if they know.
some who went there to date AND
some who went there to gay.

so there was this person..
who dunno how to swim butterfly.. end up swimming like a dead frog..
ha..ha..ha.

and there were ladies and gentlemen. who was there to model their figure and face.
though they were not really nice looking.

there was this bikini lady who was trying so hard to swim..
and managed to move half a lap..

and of course i see gal n guy making out.. as well as guy and guy having 'great time' there:)

zettai kareshi

2009-06-22T22:43:00.005+08:00

絕對男友
每個女生都想要。
但我想我並沒有那麽幸運。

看完了絕對男友。。
好感人。。
一個機器人能為他愛的人，
犧牲一切，甚至‘生命’。
我想跟機器人談戀愛，
永遠在一起也是一種幸福。
最起碼他對你是死心塌地，
永遠不會讓你難過。

我也想要個絕對男友。
可是他永遠都不能停止操作。
不然我一定哭死了..

絶対彼氏も欲しいです。　天城ニイト，左様なら！
速水もこみちはイケテル。

mango

2009-06-21T21:54:00.001+08:00

Went shopping today.
So happy.
Mango having sale.
Lots of cheap stuffs.
Bought a bag.
Super good bargain.
Thanks Zhe Ba Liao.

Amazing Race from East Coast park to Changi!

2009-06-17T00:59:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOSH!
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT WE DID IT!
I swore that i won't skate to the other end of East Coast Park again...
but in the end WE MADE IT ALL THE WAY TO CHANGI VILLAGE!

YES IT'S freaking TIRED.. but it's worth it:)
lols... i think we skate for like at least 8km. for sure.
and the motivation behind all these was none other than ...
NASI LEMAK. FROM CHANGI VILLAGE.
IT'S REALLY DAMN NICE!

plus the yummy TP KOI bubble tea session after dinner..

Super shiok!
Whoohoo!!!
great workout!
great food!
great time!
great fun!
I LOVE SKATING!

ps: we'll go again next time k?!

played bball

2009-06-10T19:31:00.003+08:00

I dun like ppl to PANGSEH me.
And yet without an apology.
So ppl dun try it on me anymore.
If U THINK U WANNA 'SURPRISE' ME.
I REALLY DUN LIKE IT!

Got Married In Audi.
Had a beautiful Ring.
Played Basketball with friends.
Feel so tired and yet refreshed.
Think I am getting older.
Goin East Coast tomorrow.
Yeah! workout again!!!
I love skating!
Looking Forward for Johore Trip again!
Self proclaimed hols for 5 days! HAHA:)

Awaiting for chalet:) n the wine feast! Yoohoo!

PS: XX. Where is my johore trip?

帥哥

2009-06-02T22:44:00.006+08:00

我剛剛看到了型男。。
又看到了帥哥。

帥哥是重點。
帥，高，一副聰明樣，
簡直就是緯玲幻想的對象。
可是曉賢說。。不配。

帥哥有在偷聼我們説話，
尤其是説到大提琴，
他側過頭來。
我們只有一片寂靜。

他真的很帥，
因爲曉賢被煞到了。

現實生活中真的是有帥哥的。

快樂的生日會

2009-05-31T23:53:00.003+08:00

意義非凡的燒烤會，
驚喜連連的一晚。
一些善意的謊言，
讓我錯愕不及。

小小的生日蛋糕裏，
有你們滿滿的誠意。
我感受到了！
我有被感動。

快樂的一天，
讓我們有狂歡的藉口。
某人拼命的灌某人，
臉頰不經意的泛紅。
還好沒有不省人事。

一群真摯的朋友，
一份難得的禮物，
讓我有幸福的滋味。

2009-05-31T00:03:00.002+08:00

如果我变成回忆

累了照惯例努力清醒着也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了
听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你

如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
原来依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力把我忘记

人生真的好短暫，充滿了許多未知數。
被呵護，從未體驗過苦澀是不會懂得珍惜的。
我學會了珍惜，珍惜生活中的一切。
機會不是偶然，幸福是自己去爭取。
如果不去努力，眼前的一切將化爲泡沫。
有些人努力過，但卻失敗了；
有的人努力了，他們登上了巔峰。；
有些人甚至連努力的機會都沒有。
我比這群沒機會努力的人幸福多了，
至少我努力的證實了我的存在。
至於我存在的價值，仍然還沒有個答案。
我只知道我絕對不要變成回憶，退出了这场生命。

超感動的詞，動聽的歌聲，
很誠懇的一首歌。
仔細地聆聼，認真地反省，
我深深的被感動了，
臉頰也濕了。

我學會了

2009-05-26T23:26:00.003+08:00

我學會了...

好心不會有好報，

不能太信任別人，

世界上沒有誰少了誰是不行的,

失望過後再次感到希望,

從彷徨中找尋曙光,

烹飪壽喜燒 . -.-ll

快樂的一天

2009-05-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

沒事做的一天，
潮濕的一天，
悠閒的一天，
自由自在的一天。。

人生就是如此。

在家溫習功課，
在家上網看戯，
在家吃飽后睡。

這也是一種享受。

人生

2009-05-14T23:41:00.003+08:00

人生真的是無法預測。。
充滿了無窮的驚喜。
驚喜之餘。。也充滿了許多彷徨，迷惘。。
當人陷入彷徨，迷惘時。。
他該怎樣面對這一切？
又有誰能帶他沖出重圍？？

運氣好的話，人或者會遇到他的幸運星。
運氣背的話，説不定又會殺出個程咬金。

若能越過圍牆，看到的一定是萬里晴空嗎？
又或者是一道又一道的圍牆？？

人能夠選擇他想要的命運嗎？
要如何選擇才不會感到遺憾呢？
要做出正確的選擇真的那麽容易嗎？

或許根本就沒有選擇的存在。
它只不過只是人類製造出來的假象。
讓生活沒那麽枯燥乏味，讓生活多份奢望，
讓人類躲開彷徨和失望的避風港。

Happy Mother's Day

2009-05-11T11:59:00.000+08:00

祝願全天下的母親，母親節快樂！！

媽媽最棒！

媽咪，希望你今天玩得還開心吧:)

Fahrenheit chase

2009-04-02T18:33:00.004+08:00

HOhoho!!! Been rather busy for the last two weeks... rushing out all the assig0nments for submission.. essays, projects and tests are really nothing but hassle. It's stressed up during that period of time... but luckily I had the strongest motivation of all !!! Which is my long awaited Yalun!!! whO came on 29th march.. Wahaha..

So I said to myself: Jana, please work hard for the sake of seeing Yalun. He wouldn't like to see someone who doesn't do her work.. although this is no fool proof. lols. and that's how i struggled through with my loads of work.especially when you have a project mate who doesn't know how to do her work and you always have to cover up her portion of work as well.

So the most exciting and elated moments are finally here. Yeah!!! and I can't believe that I did such things as well.. Haha..

29th March 2009
Woke up damn early to go q... reached IMM at ard 7.30am. so happy that I am quite front... around 10.30 we got shifted up to Fish n Co. so happy that i AM AT THE 3RD barrigate.. it was so near... HIM become a bit smarter by making lots and lots of number tags so that fans who wanted to go to toilet need not q up for a number... unlike the previous Concert Autograph. then did nth but wait wait wait till time's up.. The stupid Jiahui arh... she never chat with the fans before they come... and kept sitting down there touching up..what the hell!!! and suddenly they appeared.. dotx.
OH MY GOD YALUN IS SO SHUAI!!! tried to took videos of them but the stupid Calvin ifc ppl hold their banner so high up that keep blocking my view... so I shift to a corner just to see.. n i believed that Aaron see my board as he was waving in my direction. Coz nobody else was beside me. unless ppl behind me was holding his board as well.. That's not the point.. Suddenly, there was a big thunder and it rained heavily. The floor was flooded and everyone was trying to pick up their bag which was on the floor and avoiding the rain. So nice of Fahrenheit to remind the fans not to get wet. They sang 寂寞暴走and 默默。
so we squeezed and squeezed to the first row and keep taking pics.. We shouted for chun and jiro.. they are so damn nice..keep waving to us... Finally, we went on stage.. Oh wells, Yiru seems a bit dao this time round. I supposed he was too tired because he never say much except thank you. Then it was my Darling!!!! He signed and shook hands with me (though the rest too.. but I din exactly care much..muahaha)

綸：謝謝。。 me: 亞綸，加油！綸:嗯。。 me: Aaron, dai daisukiyo! 綸:我也愛你
me：待會見綸：好，待會見:)

Oh my god! I almost fainted when he say 我也愛你...coz with his attitude usually he would say 嗯。謝謝！omg! my first daisukiyo that I ever said to a guy... shy shy : at least gt a gd reply .. though i know its love for fans:) and the stupid part dai dai.. wat lao. a bit embarrassed. later he totx i wan to curse him sia. My poor Yalun complexion was deterioriating ..

So next's up was Jiro.. I was waiting to move to Chun's side... but Jiro was like looking at me with that kind of expression saying.."what do you have to say to me? other than Jiayou" it was quite an awkward scene.. so I ended up telling him that he was cute.. and he said 真的嗎？真的咯！then to my amazement... he gave me a cute posed... he is really a nice chap. BUt feel so apologetic to my aaron.. lols

Told CHUN "apa cinta perdamu.." but he merely said "我也是和謝謝"..Oh wells. then the most funniest part was that. I am too happy over what Aaron said.. and ran down without taking my lyrics book.lols. and Chun was like asking is this yours?

I was so damn happy that Aaron signed the 平時有空版 which is the chinese word lun。。and not the簽名會人多版- Aaron..I thought that everyone had this signature. But my fwens who were 2 barrigates away told me they gt the Aaron signature after they went to the toilet break.and the Dong Undefeated also got Aaron.. so it was really damn lucky... mayb it was because I was holding his board?? dunno.. haha

After which we rushed to their another event which was at St James PowerHouse..and didn't know what actually happened at IMM. This was supposed to a happy event but turned out to be such a sad one. As there were too much people and had to rush down to Power House, they can't finish signing and of course a lots of fans were very sad and angry. Towards the end, it became a handshake session. Then worst of all, HIM used Yalun's stomach discomfort as an excuse to stop the event and obviously, Yalun were super pissed and said "不要把我當擋盾牌". I had never seen him so angry before and they were super apologetic. Luckily, I didn't get to see that if not I would be damn sad and would cry??

(look at this video-->http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DE3GrSV07-E)

PowerHouse wasn't too bad, real upclose though we waited for almost 1.5hr？？ but it was worthwhile. They sang 寂寞暴走，默默 and 留下來..and this was also the first time i saw Yalun cry.. 爲什麽要說死呢？親人過世真的不好受..當時我也感同身受，淚也不禁掉下來。。還好沒人發現。。

30th March 2009
went to chase after them again.. and this time by car..i can't believe that I am doin this. But it was a exciting and fun-filled day. I think it's really quite worth it. Followed him everywhere - Down Syndrome Association, SPH, Campus Super Star, Riverwalk Jumbo and then back to their hotel. Chasing was really fun and I think those bus uncle was really pros.. they knew their schedule and communicate through walkie talkie.. haha.. It's really an experience and I think once should try it once in their lifetime. Maybe next time i shall try chasing plane as well.. wahaha

DSA- Aaron did sth cute there .. haha " Pudding" and he gave that damn paiseh look which I love a lot! and managed to pass XiaoXian's meimei's letter to Dadong just before he went up to the car. Shouted to him while I and him stretched out to give and receive.. I was rather curious what actually she wrote in there coz I dun wan Dong to misunderstand. haha. at least he will know who gave that letter coz there was eye contact and he's bound to read the letter as there wasn't much in his hands.

SPH- did nth but wait.

CSS- this was quite lucky. I didn't have the tix at first and it was through someone that I got it around 6 plus. I already had the preparation to go back home to watch them on tv. They sang 3 song again, 越來越愛，寂寞暴走 and I think 默默？haha it was super noisy down there.. so I didn't really pay attention to what they were actually singing. But I THINK I heard live and cd. lols. Then everyone chiong back to the bus again the moment their performance ended... Chun was quite caring, told us not to run..

Jumbo- it was really amazing. The whole restaurant was like empty before they came. and after they reached, fans just went in to have dinner with fahrenheit as well. Though fahrenheit was in the vip room while they outside.Then there was this fans who touched Yalun from the arm to hands, he turned around with that kind of " Yewks! y did u touch me like this?!"Poor thing.

Last stop, back to hotel- Bid goodnight to Yalun. but he didn't hear it.. so I tapped him and he turned around to bid me goodnight too.. Oh..so sweet:)

Haha.. wanted to send him off at the Airport the next day but I can't woke up as it ended quite late on the 30th and I was super tired..The flight was 8.10 am so had to reach at 7am. I was super traumatised that..ARRGH! I can't even wake up even for Yalun... worst still.. Xiao Xian can wake up!!!

I thought that by putting my phone under the pillow I could wake up easily but to my dismal... I accidentally pressed the button and rejected Xiao Xian's call.. when I woke up it was already 7... The first thing I woke up wasn't Fahrenheit but... Oh Shit! Xiao Xian!

SORRY! XIAO XIAN! I DIDN'T DO IT ON PURPOSE!

Everyone called to bombard me why didn't I go and send him off... So I was truly traumatised and can't fall asleep anymore as well as XiaOxIAn and Weiling... so we went out for breakfast and crap... That's how I ended my Fahrenheit-chasing process. lols.

Now... after all these Happy moments spent with Dearest Aaron..now I had to spend with my 'dearest' books!

Trip to batam

2009-02-25T13:03:00.012+08:00

christmas passed, new year passed, chinese new year passed.... haven't been updating my blog for so long..

Finally!!! I get to go back to indonesia!!! oh yes!!! what a nice holidays I had, although it is only ten short days. How I wished my holidays were longer.. We accompanied my grandma and grandpa to the old old kampong where they used to live and where my mama and papa grew up. It's really oh my god! If I were to grew up there, I think i might be bored to death or maybe diarrhoea till no shit.. lols. The place is called Selat Panjang, some island in the Indonesia Riau Province. It's freaky small and the people there lead quite a simple life. No shopping centre (place too small?), no amusement park (no security standard?), no swimming pool (the water is too dirty) etc..

The food there are all simple fares like nasi lemak, satay, fried noodles and etc. Thus, my didi and u conclude that no wonder the people there all live to a ripe old age? with little ailments.. haha :D Oh wells, my didi and I being grew up in a city cannot get used to eating the food and drinking the well or rain water there; ended up having diarrhoea and stomach upset. My mama brought me to eat the lontong sayur that she used to eat when she was small and my ahma showed me the place where their kway tiao stall used to be.. The trip was enjoyable especially with the bechak aka trishaw. The trishaw driver was damn pro, he can carry four passengers!!!! which is around 200 plus kg... can he's not even panting and sweatiing like mad.
I used to thought that there is only the traditional trishaw, those with the bicycle but now there is those with the motorbike! so diao! and it is super fast... likt tut tut.. haha. We also went to pay our respects to our yeye.. since it was also his hometown and went around visiting relatives. My gugu really very nice.. She was so delighted to see us and cooked a lot for us to eat and her cooking skills was superb! She gave us big hongbao though it was far off after new year. We wanted to reject it but she said something so diao : 姑姑要給紅包不用管是不是新年。lols

Back in batam, went to quite a lot of places.. and there's is this place called coastarina. It's a seaside places just like east coast, esplanade and sentosa. Though there's no flyover but there is ferris wheel which is abt 10 storey high?? and there is bumper boat, rolling ball etc.. all sortof fun activities. ate a lot of seafood.. got my favourite crab!!! haha! nonetheless, went to uncle's house to bbq and play with my super cute cousins! I just realised that I got plenties of cousins and nephews, nieces on my paternal's side. Imagine I have 9 uncles and 4 aunts, on average, they had 3 child each... oh my freaky god...

On the way back to Singapore, met this custom officer think age around 20 plus or early 30s who's so lame..Maybe he's too bored from his work and kept chatting with us. First is my mama.. he pronounce my mama's name while checking her passport and ask did he pronounce it correctly. So my mama was like yes yes ..so he say: wah auntie.. u everything also say yes... then he looked at my studentpass and wah: hou sei la.. uni student leh. which course? then i was like..lols.. there it is written on the pass. so he was like ooh.. and then started to test me. I didn't catch what he say as I was rather tired and feeling a bit unwell. so he said.. eh nvm.. nvm hear nvm..According to my mama, he was asking what is 10% of 100..lols

Then at the luggage checking point, there he was again. I wondered why is he there again? Is he that free?so he start crapping with me again la.. and this time round i caught wat he said: mm, how much is it after giving 10% to $148.. so i told him the ans.. Then he was like, mm, dun bluff me ar, if not i go to your house find u.. I was like about to say.. you didn't even know my address. on second thoughts.. he does have coz ofthe custom records. Then he said exactly what I was thinking lols... I should have say.. JUST COME IF U DARE!! lols. but forget it.. i was like damn tired.. n wanted to get out asap... so just keep bye bye... if not dunno what else he wanna say... Is working at the custom that free? Maybe I should go to... lols
At coastarina..

Back to the kampong..

this is the legendary 'zhu long'.

the tortoise is so damn big. wonder how old it is?

my cute little nephews:)

The rubbish chute.. so damn dirty imagine living next to it...

"bechak"

飛輪海見面會

2008-11-23T00:51:00.005+08:00

期待。。
喜悅。。
心動。。
感動。。

11月16日

無法形容的快樂。。再此暖和了一顆冰冷的心。。
歷經了許多挫折，人生的起起落落。
熾熱的心被澆滅了，也變得心力交瘁。。

對任何的事和物也只能抱著
既来之，则安之的態度。。
期望，希望根本就沒有它們存在的價值
更不用説是興奮與快樂。。

算了吧。隨你吧。你想怎樣就怎樣。。
這一切我根本就不在乎！！反正心也死了。
快樂。。再也不屬於我的。
又或者它從來就不屬於我。

心裏面的這些話從來都不想讓任何人知道。。
當然微笑就是最好的保護色。。

曾以爲破碎的心已無法體會到
什麽是快樂。。一份發自内心的快樂。。
什麽是激動。。一份讓人落淚的激動。。

如今，這種似曾相似的感覺又悄悄的。。
鑽進了冷落的心窩裏。。
只有你有如此神奇的力量，如此超凡的魅力。。

讓這顆心不在感到無比的冷漠。。
讓眼淚再度從迷惘的眼眶中落下
讓臉頰再度感受到眼淚的濕與熱。。

11月18日
看見你被愛你的朋友們如此的推擠著
心中感到莫名的痛惜，瞬間想要幫你擺脫這一切
從微笑，不笑，到再一次的露出一絲絲的笑容。。
這一切足以表露你剛剛的不滿。。
但你仍然好聲好氣的對這群不理智的朋友們。。
或許你當下是想要破口大駡。。
但是偶像的包袱卻讓你無法這樣做。。

偶像也是人。。難道就不能設身處地的替他們想想嗎？
一定要把它們惹毛了才知道他們其實也跟我們一樣。。
會生氣。。也需要一點點自己的空間。

你就這樣在一場混亂中。。安全的被護送到離境廳。。
揮著手，帥氣的臉孔帶著微笑跟大家告別。。
也讓這一次的旅程留下了完美的句號。

新加坡金曲獎

2008-10-27T17:04:00.006+08:00

日子過得好快。。轉眼間一個學期就快要過去了。。
又要考試了！！真討厭！

出席了新加坡金曲獎以及見面會。。只能說。。讚！
因爲有我最愛的劉力揚!! ㄏㄏ :) 女皇万嵗！！
當然還有可愛的宥加咯!!!

見面會上。。力子新地替咩咩慶祝了她的生日。。
咩咩好開心。。
力子們好厲害。。能夠找到咩咩最喜歡的樂隊的LD.
讓她笑開懷。
更重要的是。。咩咩在金曲獎也獲得了新人獎。。
那應該也是最棒的禮物了吧？

好開心！見面會上和宥加揮手還以爲他沒看到。。
沒想到他以微笑和點頭回應。。簡直樂翻了。。
後來不知怎麽的。。他一直往我這方向瞪。往這裡笑。。
原來我是全場唯一一個隨著音樂搖擺雙手的笨蛋。。
真是的。。糗大了。。沒關係。。起碼博得君子一笑。。

到現場去觀看金曲獎和在熒幕上觀看果真的是不一樣。。
現場超high的！
我想以後我應該還會再去吧。。
還有阿。。。第一次目睹了五月天的Live。。
我想以後我應該會想要去他們的演唱會。。

你不是真正的快樂。。真的感動了我。差一點就落淚。
還好ㄍ一ㄥ著了。。
我真的快樂嗎？

突然好想你。。亞綸。。
期待。。161108..

注意：朋友的狗狗不見了。。麻煩幫忙尋覓以下馬爾濟斯犬。。

-White Maltese, schnauzer cut, 1 ft long

-went missing on 27/10/08, 12 pm – 1pm @ Poole Road off Tanjong Katong Road.

- last seen @ the back alley near the bird shop.

-Name: Bi boy

- Microchip no: 982-009101556258

Please contact Peishi (96430753) if you have any news of him.

School Started

2008-09-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

A new chapter of life unfolds. School started and one thing I can say is.... SIAN! Not because school is not fun, but school is filled with work and projects. Perhaps this happens to anyone too. Hmmm, make quite a few friends and maybe I can stop expanding my social circle in Uni life from here. After all, studies is more important. A new defintion of school in my thoughts- Pls attend lectures, hand in assignments on time and revise your work at home. Most importantly, participate ACTIVELY in tutorials. It was totally so different from how I defined school in the past - Pls pon your lessons if you don't feel like goin, do your assignments when u feel like it, sleep and play at home. Nevertheless, turn a deaf ear to what your tutors said and let them spoonfeed you with the answers.

Maybe it is with this lazy thinking that I ended with what I am today.. and should I say.. it serve me right? Perhaps. So we'll shall see whether this new definition I have for this new chapter in my life brings me good results? or I should say better performance as compared to the past.

Oh wells... my dear friend has left for China. As we have counted.. she would be back in another 126 days. Ah Hong ah, see how much we look forward for your return. Hope she didn't get too 'gek' when she see that momento tt we gave her. Haha. We put a lot of efforts in it kaes! Your friends aren't that heartless after all though we might sound so.. lols. Must say Thank YOU hor! and be thankful that you got such 'wonderful' friends! hmm.. :P Ah Hong ah, must take care!! I don't want see an Ah Hong go there but an Ah Hei come back. Remember to keep in touch !!! Last thing.. hope you would have a rendezvous there.. though you might not get to see Tay Ping Hui over there.. Haha..

Dreams, Yume

2008-08-17T16:23:00.003+08:00

Unknowingly it's been almost three months since i last update my blog..Three months-It been neither a long time or a short time. Things haven't change much for me. I m still me, kicking alive on this dimishing Earth. Ya rite,the usual me with that shattered face.

What am I actually searching for in life ? and what exactly are my dreams? What will my future be like? Nobody knows. Maybe there's someone up there who really knows but the someone just can reveal our destiny to us. Everyday seems to repeat itself. Eat, sleep work or study. Does that appeal to others as well.Perhaps, everyone is also leading the same boring life. Life really getting a bit meaningless for me .I am like an aimless soul wandering here and there looking for a bright light to lead me out of this dark period. Who will be the bright light for me? Sometimes, I really do envy people who have dreams. They know what they want to be in future and would work hard for it. However, how many people actually get to realise their dreams? One dare to dream but do they dare and have the ability to realise their dreams? and when one get to realise their dreams, would they ever be grateful to themselves and work hard to live in their current state. Or would they not be contented and continue to pursue even more ambitious dreams?? and one day forget about themselves and their original dreams.. Eventually. ending up with nothing and in a sorry state.

Yume, is it true that without you, life seems to be imperfect and lacking? MAYBE.
Yume, where are you?

reflections

2008-05-27T20:42:00.003+08:00

血流了，也止了
泪淌了，也干了。
脸上的伤也慢慢的愈合了。
但心里的伤也愈合了吗？

微笑只不过是为了掩饰，
哭泣是因为我真的受伤了。

一个不小心, 一个纯属的意外。
也不小心的改变了我的人生,
改变了我看着世界的眼眶.
改变了原来的我。

这个世界真的那么美好吗？
这个世界真的那么灿烂吗？
或许吧。

谎言让世界变得美丽。
谎言让世人变得脱俗。
但当你不再平凡，
美丽的谎言就变成残酷的事实。

这个世界是容不下丑陋，
容不下任何的不完美。
我的存在只是个累赘，
或许我跟本就不属于这个世界。
也许有一天再也不会有我的身影了。

发生了许许多多的事，
我已经心力交瘁。

我已不是原来的我了。

i m a goner

2008-05-11T12:47:00.002+08:00

I fell n I m disfigured.
I hate my face .
I hate myself.
I hate to be in this world now.
I got no face to look at anyone.
Everything is gone
The old me is dead.
I am a monster .

training session

2008-04-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

Simply love my training session! It's so fun even though it's under the hot sun and have to wake up early in the morning to travel ard. The kids there are so lovable though some are annoying. I hate boastful kids!! Can you pls finish listening to the instructors before you wan to 'gei kian'.lols. Whatever... They are just kids.In addition, there are also parents who are so kiasu and so protective of their child. It makes the whole lesson so difficult to conduct.Oh wells, all parents dote on their child. Perhaps in the future I might be one too. Who knows?

I shall not go back home after the lessons at tampines before i go for the one at sengkang. It's such a waste of time. Next time shall just go shopping or find one place sit down play ds. Haha. My friends were also telling me to go and find my own friends who are staying at the east side. It would be better if my friends drive cause they can do me a favour if my friends are nice enough. lols. The problem is I dun have friends who can drive yet. Haha.. So they were saying then go find a rich bf who can drive. lols. I think they were shocked when i say I m nt interested in guys.. but i added on.. NOT INTERESTED in girls as well.. or rather nt interested in relationship. They were like whews. "Glad u said that. thought u were .." Lols. Furthermore, I am fat n ugly. I am not good enough for any guys and no one would want me as well. :) Haha:)

I WAN BUY NEW SKATES!!! BUT IT COST LIKE 300 BUCKS!!! Nt enough budget...ANYBODY WAN SPONSOR OR CHIP IN FOR ME?? haha.. I dun think anyone will want.. sobz... Suddenly there's so many things tt i want to buy now but I go no money!! Hongyee... i need a job DESPERATELY!!!! I want money!!! I WAN BUY SKATES!!! IT'S NOW TOP PRIORITY!!

my training skating session

2008-04-20T00:39:00.002+08:00

Today went to the so called interview for the skating instructor but it's nt interview at all . haha...just assess on how u can skate.. Basically i think i m a noob ... n yes i m ..though i m nt the lousiest.. so i don't think i m qualified to be an instructor. perhaps an assistant. maybe in the future if i practise hard enough....I go thr see the ppl there so pro i also feel so sia suey.. The ppl there are really nice.. so much betta than the so wateva... n the kids so cute... OH MY GOD! i love my future job.. Even though now still on training but i really enjoy it very much. It's like i get to interact with the kids, get to skate as well , know more friends and the thing i didn't expected was i get to polish up my skating skills n consult the pros what kind of skates to buy. I wanted to buy a good skates very long ago just that I din noe which kind to buy and now gt the pros to help me out.. Thanks very much... maybe soon I might get friends tt can skate together with me. yays ! We cn all skate together n exchange pointers. Simply love this job so much that i m willing to wake up damn early in the morning to go for all the training sessions. Today thought this angmoh gurl.. she so kawaii.. hope i get to see her again next wk.! n i nv realise tt teaching beginners can be so complicated. so much basic things even before the person learn how to balance n stand up! I still got more to learn! ! went play bball today with yx they all.. so fun...n we today kept disturb by kids. also dunno y ..then they all blame me coz today too hai zi yuan le.. even we go eat subway also gt kids come disturb us.. haha!!i m very happy now... i shall occupied myself with all the things that i like to do.. I no money le!!! ppl who wan give me or lend me money!!! sobz... kept goin on low budget activities... haha

back to human's world

2008-04-18T19:59:00.004+08:00

welcome back to the human world!! haha... finally i cn go back to the usual slacking life!! Today pia like siao just because i want to get away from tt idiotic so wateva. He's such a pest! well.. why the ppl there can be so amiable n so polite... with thanks n please here.. but only u . maybe u did just tt i dun understand ur way of communication. haha.. tt's too bad..
I WANT MONEY!!! I M SO DAMN BROKE NOW!! actually muz also thanks hy... gave me this job n help me earn extra .. haha... Anyway just to clarify, I am going for the interview to b a skating instructor.. i m nt pro lor

我在你的心裡到底算什麼？
給我多一點的關心，多一點的關懷難道就真的那麼難嗎？
你到底明不明白我要的是什麼？
我要的真得很簡單。。。
只是一份愛。。一份能暖和我心坑的愛。。
這真的有那麼難嗎？
你就不能多和我好好的溝通嗎？
一定要等到我向你開口你才會明白嗎？！
這一切或許都是我單方面的奢望。。也許你曾經努力過。。
算了。。至少我還有許多關心我的人。。
但他們真的在乎我嗎?
忽然覺得我只是一個人，一個孤寂的人。。

看了亞綸的部落格后我覺得他真的好可憐。
身為歌迷的我們難道就不能體諒他嗎？
在怎樣說他還是個人。。
分別只是在於他是個公眾人物，我們只不過是個無名小卒。。
亞綸。。你要加油！！不要去理會這些無聊不懂事的人。。

works

2008-04-17T21:35:00.002+08:00

haha... tml will be my last day... i will finish all the remaining disks by hook or by crook!!! i wan to get away from the so wateva... n cut clean with him!!! shit him lor... call ppl early in the morning n see ppl in the office alr... hellos. the engineer call me to go later k... n my beautiful dream is shattered by ur stupid call... woken up by u still nvm... still kaobei n say wat... i have to do faster if nt boss nt happy, then i also can't help u... boss nt happy then is i kanna sack also right... nt ur business... he asshole larx... i m like doing faster n faster everyday then he still kept asking me to do faster...so inhumane... wateva larx... so damn pissed la... somemore everyday call me to ask me how much i did n have to do report... i know this is ur job, u r supposed to follow my progress.. but u also no need everyday call me right? I will automatically email u the report... like I say .. so i complained everything to hy... even she said he's an asshole lo... trying to make himself look better.. wateva lor... n she said if i really nt happy.. go tell him... SO FINE... N I DID... cannot tahan anymore...n i nt goin to care how he's goin to feel...oh yays... so he nv call anymore... tml shall be my last day... n i'll cut clean with him.. wahaha.. todday gt this weird chee-na guy who came to me n ask me help him call the person so tt he cld be escorted to the toilet... it's like wat?! u dun have hp or the no. meh? y me? oh wells... me being a samaritan.. just do him a favour lo..
i really more n more anti against chee-nas... die liao larx..
yays..hope my interview on sat will be a successful one... lovely kids... i m coming..haha

money fridge work

2008-04-16T22:12:00.006+08:00

haha.. been busy with work lately...can't believe tt i m working again... so always expect the unexpected... when u lost hopes in getting a job... then suddenly u will see a ray of light.. n many job opportunities just kept popping out... haha:)
what m i working as? how was my job? many asked... oh well.. it's kinda boring, slack n freezing..... haha... Basically what i does everyday is just insert disk n copy it to data bases.. and this process takes like at least 20 mins. during which... u jus do ur own thing... haha.. yar.. watever u wan... play, sleep, stone, listen to mp3, watch movie, study, online etc except for drinking n eating... no one cares as long as u do ur work.... n nobody cares.. because I m alone... one person thr facing the pc, my bf ...haha..so i just station thr from 9-6 all by myself. no one to talk to... then when it's time for lunch or u need to go to the toilet...the person will come escort you .. it's just like u r being jailed... u cn't go anywhr u like except to be inside in the data storage rm which is super cold... i wear like 4-5 layers of clothes n when really cannot take it, i have to put on my gloves.. tt's what i call it paid to be jailed or a money fridge.. went strolling ard in the rm n i happen to see tt the temperature on a machine is 21 degrees celsius n humidity is 0.05%. it's super dry n cold.
I was rather pissed off on the first day of work and this makes me loathe chee na ppl more... i was told to wait for tt so wateva at the busstop earlier as he need to teach me do stuff, n supposed to go snatch chair.. coz heard there's nt much chair thr.. so well i reach at 8.40 n i called the so wateva , n he say wah no need to be so early de lo... n in the end he 9.30 then reach.. wat lao eh... make me wait for 1 h!!! cn't believe i waited for a stranger for 1 h! i was like ok nvm... almost going to blow off.. then best part...

i was nt told to bring any identifications so i can't enter the security-tight office, nt even with ezlink. wth!! i was so chui... i travel abt 40 mins to reach my work place which is at kembangan thr n make me waited for almost 1 hr! 1 hr leh! then now u tell me need go back take...freaking hell.. luckily hy say take cab can claim money.. if nt i think i go hm then nt comin back le.. so finally after much torture... i started my work... back to the so wateva... then on the second day, i was alone coz i DUN NEED the so wateva thr. i was supposed to tell him how much i did...n when i m so proud of myself tt i managed to finish 11 disk the 2nd day on my own.. he say wat.. oh well ..can be better.. at least 12 disks.. shit him la.. u think i pro ah.. first day on own leh... complained to hy n she say dun care him la.. he stupid de..

so he now everything pester me on how much i did n ask me to email him everynight.. so damn sian.. i know tt's his job but no need everyday call me right.. i will do it automatically .. or the most jus sms to remind me..n kept asking whether i m well n fine? cause thr this curse that ppl working thr will get sick due to the dry n cold atmosphere... OH PLS! I M WELL N FINE.. thou i know u r trying to be nice.. n i really appreciate it.

i love my job..cause it cold.. n quiet.. haha.. no one disturb me.. n what xx say.. hong yee.. u really choose the right person... ice queen here n the 'nearest' to the workplace de... haha.. everyday, nv talk n sometimes nv eat lunch.. coz eat alone damn sian ..rather dun eat.. then one day the most go toilet 3 times.think soon i goin to get zi bi zheng or maybe attain cultivation le.. mayb i put down on yalun then really attain nirvanna le.. haha:)

PS: gina arh.. i m nt monsters k.. kids will love me de lo.. n i won't make them fall... if i m successful in my interview:)

bball

2008-04-04T20:20:00.004+08:00

today was super tiring... meet up to play bball at px house there but in the end din managed to play coz yx's ball no air... sian... slept at 3 am last night n woke up soo early to play bball but then no ball... so we wasted the whole morning tryin to wait for shops to open so tt we can buy pump to pump the basketball but then to no avail... so chui... no choice lor.. we play play pool n arcade instead... fancy waiting outside kpool to open... just see how early we are... then went imm to shop while they have their swensens lunch... i managed to buy a very very very nice hellokitty bag:) yeah...
so while we are abt to go peixuan's house to bake eclairs after weiling had left for work, then yx suddenly saw this Royal Sporting House n she managed to get a PUMA Pump..haha...so we went play bball after tt instead of goin to px's house... it was soooo FUN!!! love playing bball to dotx.. thou i prefer volleyball better... lols.. what i can say is.. weiling really the gt no luck with bball lor... everytime play with them also gt nth cropped up.. first time she join then like tt.. after she gone we get to play bball again... weiling ah... how suey can u be lo?

oh welll after much deep thots... i think ah ... my future boyfriend/husband shld be like this >>

1.General:Status-single and hopefully age gap <5>5... gt feel can le.. dun mind younger or older

2.Dimensions:Size - > 170cm x 20 inches x 8 inches (looking from the front n from the side)weight- >50 kg (thin or fat doesn't really matters to me)

3.Display- able to behave in front of others(dun make me sia suey in front of ppl or do some stupid sia suey things),pleasant looking to me so muz have big n attractive eyes(to others i dun care),stylish(muz have nice hairstyle, muz nt look niang or gay if gt earhole ),neither flip or slide (dun two-timer n flirt lo..)

4.Memory- big enough to store everything abt me n my friends (muz understand me, know me well, stand my temper, tahan my rubbish n most impt DUN TRY TO PANGSEH ME)

Features:
1. SMS, MMS, Email, Instant Messaging(easy communication)

2.3.5G function better if gt HSDPA (all-times meetup)

3.multimedia player-MP4 player (hopefully know how to sing nicely n gt things to see-muz able to entertain me n able to lame ard with me..)

4.downloadable games (know all sorts of activities n hopefully at least know all the things tt i know ie rollerskating, iceskating, cycling, play basketball,play pool, bowling and more so tt can accompany me play togther)

5. preferably yellow skin (sorry ah.. a bit the racist like weiling say..if other country then i dun mind)

6.everlasting battery (will be there whenever i need him.. )

7. same frequency as me (so tt's there no communication breakdown n he'll understand things tt i say...if nt so chui)

8.GPS function for easy location (easy to find him n know what's he doing when i need to know)

9. shock-proof (resistant to other temptation. wahaha)n water- resistant (better know how to swim)

10. HE must not be overdemanding , possessive, a smoker, scolding vulgarities(tmd n f still can accept).

11. HE must be nice to all my friends(but ah dun kanna bully like shit still no temper..like tt i say sayonara to u), families, humble n strforward( simply can't stand ppl who jus dun speak up their mind but of course nt brainless talkings).

12. xx reminded me- he must not have 'xiong mao' and must be hygienic n clean

13. He must know how to cook n do housework.. haha.. so can cook for me n share the workload with me:)

got a personality here.. haha>>测测你的主动性
Qn: 假如有一扇能看见海景的窗，你会为这扇窗挑选甚么颜色的窗帘？
A. 红色 B. 蓝色 C. 黄色 D. 白色

A 型.....遇到自己喜欢的人，你会抓紧时机表白心迹。你不喜欢思前顾後，即使没有十足把握也会表达自己的真实想法。你会积极地把握每一次机会，也有抓住良机的力量。但注意不能过分强硬，否则只会吓怕了对方。

B 型.....你不喜欢过於直接的表达爱意，对爱情多采取随机应变的态度。你不会急於表现自己，而是借助周围的环境，自然地突显自己的个性。对於自己喜欢的人，你的基本技巧是「赞同」，通过认同对方使彼此产生知己的共鸣。

C 型.....你的个性天真无邪，最不攻於心计。你对人的好感完全受到好奇心的支配，自然地与对方交往，发掘共同兴趣。真实、坦白是你最大的特点，但你似乎稍微欠缺努力和决心，所以与异性的关系总是界定於朋友与恋人之间的暧昧阶段。

D 型.....亲切随和是你的特点，你的温驯使人与你一起时感到舒畅，但有时你会过份迁就别人，而缺少了自己的主见，即使喜欢上某人也只会在一旁默默等待。渴求一份有成就的爱情，就需要积极点行动了

rule 1

2008-04-03T21:06:00.002+08:00

wanted to go watch rule#1 with my online friend.. but then ps dun have the 4.55 pm show liao... then too late.. so can't make it... but in the end still went to watch rule #1 with jeremy at vivo... Finally i found someone who haven't watch lor...and YES I FINALLY WATCH MY RULE#1.. i think the show quite sad... poor fiona... n i think nv go offend those siao de... if nt really 冤魂不散。。恶鬼索命。。 i think rule#1 isn't a horror... it's like kinda of a sad story... to me at least... the director is quite genius.. gave ppl unexpected ending n included parts which ppl wld guess... seriously speaking... IT IS REALLY A NICE MOVIE!!! LAME N SAD... IT'S NT SCARY AT ALL!!
today damn suey lah...wanted to go find wl after tt... but then she nt free n she lost her phone.. so it's like sian... no one to whine at kor... haha... want to see how kor react when dasao start whining and whining... sure must be a hilarious scene... haha.. it was raining so damn heavily after the movie ended... and it's like.. wat lao... i was drenched... except for my bag... it's really heng tt my bag is waterproof... so ppl pls ah.. if want give me bag... pls buy waterproof bag hor... blur queen like me wld just get drenched.. muz go buy new shoes le... almost slipped and fell today... but luckily didn't ... if nt really damn suey lor...

I WANT WATCH RULE#1 AGAIN

bf specifications pt 2

2008-04-02T23:50:00.003+08:00

talking abt bf stats the other day.... now.. further explain what i actually mean... well my standares are rather low... nt like some miss ah.. finding mr impossible...

1.General:Status-single and hopefully age gap <5>5... gt feel can le.. dun mind younger or older

2.Dimensions:Size - > 170cm x 20 inches x 8 inches (looking from the front n from the side)
weight- >50 kg (thin or fat doesn't really matters to me)

3.Display- able to behave in front of others(dun make me sia suey in fornt of ppl or do some stupid sia suey things),
pleasant looking to me so muz have big n attractive eyes(to others i dun care),
stylish(muz have nice hairstyle),
neither flip or slide (dun two-timer n flirt lo..)

4.Memory- big enough to store everything abt me n my friends (muz understand me, know me well, stand my temper,most impt DUN TRY TO PANGSEH ME)

Features:
1. SMS, MMS, Email, Instant Messaging(easy communication)

2.3.5G function better if gt HSDPA (all-times meetup)

3.multimedia player-MP4 player (can sing n gt things to see-muz able to entertain me)

4.downloadable games (know all sorts of activities n hopefully at least know all the things tt i know ie skating,cycling etc so tt can accompany me do lots of things)

5. preferably yellow skin (sorry ah.. a bit the racist like weiling say..if other country then i dun mind)

6.everlasting battery (will be there whenever i need him.. )

7. same frequency as me (so tt's there no communication breakdown n he'll understand things tt i say...if nt so chui)

8.GPS function for easy location (easy to find him n know what's he doing when i need to know)

9. shock-proof (resistant to other temptation. wahaha)
n water- resistant (better know how to swim)

10. HE must not be overdemanding , possessive, a smoker, scolding vulgarities(tmd n f still can accept).

11. HE must be nice to all my friends(but ah dun kanna bully like shit still no temper..like tt i say sayonara to u), families, humble n strforward( simply can't stand ppl who jus dun speak up their mind but of course nt brainless talkings).

ps:weiling ah... my dearest dasao... lower ur standard leh... like tt ah.. u cannot find ur darling lo..i shall bring u to matchmaking one day... hahaha

bf specifications

2008-03-31T22:10:00.003+08:00

met weiling today... and she borrow a bk from library.. and guess what it abt 谈恋爱。。 haha..
so lame right.. matches the post tt she post recently.. she needs a BOYFRIEND.. lols..
well then there is this personality test which is abt.. how much u longs to have a relationship... n guess what... mine is only 20%.. which is the least.. n weiling is 90%.. OH MY GOD!! SHE REALLY NEEDS A BOYFRIEND!!!

so we start to crap... n talk abt BOYFRIENDS... n their specifications.. so this is what i concluded for mine>>>

General:
Status-single,
Dimensions:
Size - > 170 x 20 x 8
weight- >50
Display- able to behave in front of others,pleasant looking, stylish, neither flip or slide
Memory- big enough to store everything abt me n my friends
Features:
1. SMS, MMS, Email, Instant Messaging(easy communication)
2.3.5G function better if gt HSDPA (all-times meetup)
3.multimedia player-MP4 player (can sing n gt things to see-muz able to entertain me)
4.downloadable games (know all sorts of activities n hopefully)
5. preferably yellow skin
6.everlasting battery
7. same frequency as me
8.GPS function for easy location
9. shock-proof n water- resistant

to be continued...

love

2008-03-23T22:01:00.007+08:00

被你爱过我很快乐。。被爱真的会快乐吗？
被爱就不会有烦恼吗？或许吧。。

爱。。它到底是什么？为何人人都想渴望得到它？
爱。。它究竟有什么魔力？为何让人这么的着迷？
爱。。它是朋友还是敌人？为何让人又爱又恨？
爱。。它是永恒还是短暂的？
爱真的能够天长地久吗？或许吧。如果能够两情相悦。。
爱。。为何有人把它当儿戏？难道就不能认真地对待爱吗？
爱究竟是真实的吗？它是否值得期待吗？

爱或许是不该期待的。。
或许是看到我爱护的人被爱弄得遍体鳞伤。。
对爱产生了恐惧。。
或许是我懦弱，胆怯，害怕受到伤害。。
对爱产生了排斥。。

east coast

2008-03-18T22:35:00.005+08:00

Hmm... after soooo long.. finally i get to go to east coast AGAIN! with them ... muahaha... a fun-filled day at East Coast with a bit of 'surprise'.. heyhey... went picnic leh.. 6 aunties went east coast picnic and celebrate hy's bday... so lol... but this is quite fun sia.. brought a bit too much food there so in the end have to throw away.. so wasted.. Finally after soo long i get to skate again... n i think i am really getting old... weeps:( aching all over n dunno y i gt so many bruises when i didn't even fell or hurt myself... went to play volleyball as well.. but the sun is like super hot... so after playing like less than half an hr... we sstop playing... haiz... wanted to play again during evening but apparently 6 aunties gt tired after cycling and nv play anymore... so we thinkin of goin to Sentosa ..:)

got bored in the end coz nth to do n some1 forgt to bring poker...but nvm..So me n xx went to rent a 2 person bike to ride then yx decided to try...n in the end we went to rent 3 of it... so in the end we went to the stupid shop 3 times... n there is these ah bengs who kept making fun of us or rather maybe me only n it's like super pissed off... the best part is ah.. when yx ask me to help her borrow the bike using her ezlink card n i gave the ahbeng A the contacts he believed... but when it's my turn... he don't n called me to try if it's for real.. so wth... hmmm well.. then ah beng B came teasing us why nv share food with him.. very hungry etc... it's like hello... u hungry u go buy food larx.. then we want basket for the bike... so i say lanzi.. ahbeng B say it's basket.. then fine.. i say basket another time rd for another bike.. then ahbeng C day she scold u basket... it's like damn boliao la... nvm.. forget it..

off to our exciting couple ride to bedok jetty.. wwelll me rode with hy n abit the unbalanced.. hehe.. so after a quite a harzardous ride... we bang into this caucasian lady... n she dislocated her wrist... so for the very first time .. ride bike and came into an accident and called the ambulance.. really very sorry!! didn't do it on purpose... well the journey back was so much betta after gainin some exp:) luckily the ahbeng b nt there... well..i prefer being the passenger hhaha..more slack:) poor me have to carry so many things back... so well next time go east coast... skates then skates all the way.. cycle then cycle... n rmb to bring backpack.. haha. oh yeah finally i can get to enter zouk for the very first time after i turn 18.. haha:) Happy belated Birthday to Hong Yee and thanks for the meal:)

P.S: I AM NOT CHAO AH LIAN! I VERY GUAI lo...

some thotx

2008-03-12T14:56:00.003+08:00

好久好久沒寫日記了。。發生了許多事，有好的也有不好的。。至於那些不好的曾向努力的把它給忘記但它始終難以磨滅。。過去的也總算過去了。。是時候別再回首往事，好好地面對那所謂美好的將來。。將來一定會美好嗎？我不敢確定。。這想法的確實有點悲觀但你經歷了一些事情之后你或許就會這樣想了。。將來一定會美好嗎？这个我真的不敢确定。。

人总是要经过一些事情之后才会长大。。才会成熟。。。我真的长大了吗？我真的成熟了吗？这可不是我可以下定论的。。你或许会觉得自己的却有成长。但别人并非所以然。。这或许就是旁观者清吧。。

这阵子想了好多好多。。。做人的意义到底是什么？人是为了自己而生存还是为了别人。。为什么人总是为了生存而拼个你死我活的？为了生存而不择手段？这就是智者生存。。只要我是强者我一定不会受人欺辱。。
难道大家都不认为只要生活过的美好。。快乐。。就足够了吗？可是很多人就是人心不足蛇吞象。总是要奢求更多。。追求自己可能一生都得不到的东西。。但这就是人。。

life story after a's

2008-02-01T18:45:00.000+08:00

unknowingly it's been past 2 mths since i last update... lots of happenings and of course lots of fun!!! it's all fun and no sorrows yet! but fear not, it will come soon. After A's what we i've been doing was work work work! though it's tiring but it was fun and fulfilling... esp working together with ur good friends... and best still there's incentive everyday to motivate you to work hard, really hard..there's only one office politic... which is we bu shuang the other ppl working attitude... well well well ..shall say nth abt it..Jana say ' 做工是走更长远的路' haha with work then u got money and u can do wateva u wan...

All work and no play makes Jana a dull girl... of course this is nt the case... went travelling ...and it was exciting and fun-filling.. First up was a 4 day trip to Bangkok (7-10 Jan) with my fellow classmates.. it was really a memorable trip.. before boarding..we stayed up the whole night at the airport and play there.. haha.. the things there was really really cheap and the food there was damn nice...ate lots of food and bought lots of things at the wholesalemarket there..their clothes super nice lahz.. very korean stuff... it's really 귀여운 ! next time must go back to the platinum and pratunam market again.. tried the 'pad thai' which is similar to the char kway teow here and of course theirs nicer. and the tom yam goong- it's really good. not as spicy as i imagine and as the ones available in singapore... but my favourites were the kwap chap, goose rice and the thai ice tea.. best of all is the double flavours dunkin donuts..yummy .. there is this elephant that appear on the street while we were eating at the street foodstalls..we were a bit stunt by it..also we took a tuk tuk ride..it was really 'wow'...nice experience and finally on the day back ..my wish of taking the pink cab was fulfilled:) now i really miss thailand ... sure to go back again next time and for sure shall stay at Asia Hotel again coz it really a convenient place.. in between siam sq and the wholesale place.. so can just walk there thus saving on transport fees:) betta still it's directly linked to the sky train so u can just conveniently travel to mbk and siam square there.. oh yar.. have to thanks pear and champ, rachel's friend for bringing us around:) You guys were really a great help:)

After coming back from Bangkok, next up was Kuala Lumpur or i should say the mext day i went to KL... with my dearest gang, Hong Yee, Peishan, Xiao Xian and of course my mum and my brother... we stayed there for like 3 days.. and bought quite a lot of things too... got my very nice kitty bag there... and sneakers as well.. like the food there too.. esp the salted egg char kuey teow there..well..the dunkin donuts weren't as nice as e ones in thailands... went to twin towers, sungei wang and berjaya time sq etc.. quite a lot of happenings there...
first there is this security guard and then later came a taxi driver who were really kind and trying to help us out but as they talked and talked they become more and more irritating. They started to say thing like aiya du go berjaya time sq..the things very ex, u all cannot afford etc etc... wateva they say lor...can't they use a bit of their brains..our income and their income different... but in the end we still buy a lot of things.. and my brother very funny... wanted to take out all the small bags of stuffs in the big bag and trying to make it seems he bought a lot of stuffs.. but he really did bought a lot... unfortunately... the security guard wasn't there..
Another funny incident.. while we were having dinner at this HK cafe .. i accidentally knock over my cup of milk tea and hy was sitting right opposite me.. so she and i was busying trying to prevent the milk tea from flowing over to tt side.. and since then .. they really fear that the same old accident would happen again others than my bad habbit of spitting food and drinks if i were to laugh while consuming them. anyway.. the service of the cafe was really really bad..FELT so not worth it to give them the 10% service charge!

So that was my exciting one week holiday after A level... and like what weiling say..it was really Truly Asia.. after that.. nth but work and work again... it's only till last week then i am really slacking.. coz the project ended and i gt no more job..so have to wait for the next project and hopefully it will come after the chinese new year.. lots of time for me to slack ard..playing my ds ,go shopping and goin out the whole day long..

so we went to play basketball.. rated no.1 healthy fun sports.. after so many years... this is also the first time that i got question by the police and got by ic written down by them while resting at the void deck after the game... yar right fancy being question by the police early in the morning ard 10 am and best of it, we were nt making a din nor dress improperly.. we were't drinking or smoking either.. nah i /we don't smoke but drink once in a while. best still we are no longer 17 years old and they shldn't have our ic written down after knowing the reason why we were there..yx was really angry and went back to complain the 2 'eng' policemen.. like what she said.. infringement on our rights and a waste of taxpayers money..

it's going to be new year soon and i see $$$ .. haha.. got lots of hongbaos to take this year coz going back to indo to have my HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.. shall also go back and highlight my hair... think i still wan purple and i decided to bleach.. coz i c this gurl at bugis have this really nice purple highlighted hair... shall just try for once:)

We @ Bangkok!!!

Here I am in KL!!

free sunday

2007-12-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

work for 5 days le... so tired... work is hard but the time working together with friends is so fun... went orchard yest to see light with yx,xx,hy,ps and px... wanted to eat Ding tai feng but we went so late and the q was so damn long... in the end nv eat... but ate suki sushi instead... hong yee's mum treated us to it cause we were so united..haha... y??? cause there's some unfinished work tt's not completed and hong yee at first can't go... but we help her out so her work was finished in a very short time and in the end she can go.. haha.. Thanks hong yee and her mum:)

Just when I thought 5566 was dying soon.... but..they revive!!! their new album comin out le:) can start to preorder le... will get a free poster and on the 4th jan when the album's out .. still gt calender...they got autograph session on 17th dec at bukit panjand plaza.. at 7 pm... wonder i should go or not??? but i really want to see them...
and oh my god!!! both kim jeong hoon and 5566 would be going to the stars award!!! i want to go and see him lahz!!! this week is star week sia...

Batan trip

2007-12-03T12:24:00.000+08:00

whoohoo...just came back form indonesia... so much fun... so long never went back le... think just a trip back should have gained quite a lot of weight... practically having heavy supper everyday..didn't buy a lot of things cause just went back for only a few days..nvm..shall go back again during january :) just realise something so cool... there's a new seoul garden restaurant and breeks cafe ... waaa.. first international brand of buffet style of shop i ever found in indonesia near my grandma's house... and guess what? it's only about 14 bucks per pax... yummy yum yum!! went shopping and eat everywhere with my cousins..my poor uncle should haev a big hole in his pocket by now by ttreating us almost everything... and being our chauffer... thanks so much...
oh yeah i rebonded my hair!!!:) i shouldn't say rebond.. is called smoothing... the nt so flat style... but apparently it still looks very flat to me.. no one to blame.. cause my hair is so damn thin and layered! i shall go back and highlight my hair during jan:) it's soooo much cheaper back in indo... only about 20 bucks... waa! so much want to but that ds game... it's considerably cheap...82 nia... but i nv bring money:( next time ba... but i still want to buy my flash drive!!!! so i shall work hard and save hard!!! yeah!! next on is genting and thailand... lalala

crazy east coast

2007-11-24T01:25:00.000+08:00

went to east coast today!! wow... it's been decades since i last went... well... today did a unbelievable act... which is skate all the way to changi and back to east coast.. this is so damn crazy.... never again would i skate all the way to changi liao... even if u give me 1000 bucks... luckily still gt weling and the rest manage to drag me back... if not i dunno how i die out there... now my whole body aches like siao...over-exercise sia...burn lots of calories... seems like a good thing but... we went to eat yuki yaki after that... what a waste ... but it was yummy and we were cracking stupid corn jokes because of peixuan ... laugh till my jaw crack... and luckily never become wu zun..i muz scrimp more...at this rate that i goin... 50 bucks gone a day... i am bound to go bankrupt...

Happy b'day

2007-11-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

wAH... it's almost a month that i never update my blog liao... so many things have happen... and past... left with the final bio paper 1 and everything would be over!! yes!! it's over!! and this close the jc's chapter of my life.... a brand new chapter is going to unveil.. what's awaiting me??? well, seriously i don't know... maybe perhaps dangers ahead or rather i prefer a more peaceful journey!!!!

Haha today 20th Nov... So I shall wish my beloved Yalun, Happy Birthday!!! may all your wishes come true! and most importantly, live healthily and happily!!!! Hope you can hurry find your the other half and get married... then i can see your cute cute children... so lol..

Anyway... think i'm suuuper busy after A level sia... all sorts of activities and fun almost everyday... this is my very packed schedule starting from my last paper 22nd Nov... Wooow!
22nd-go out with my mum after the papers and maybe with weiling in the evening either to shop or swim... and anyway i went swimming today.. swam quite a few laps..gt such a great sense of achievement, haven't have that for a very very long time....

23rd-goin to east coast with my friends... wahh... it's been so long since i went to my favourite place... and i shall skate.. haha...
24th- cello girls night at Raffels Hotel sia...hiahia... surprises awaiting...
25th- after cello girls night chiong straight away to jurong east to meet sixers
26th to 28th- co chalet at downtown east!!! and on the 1st night.. go to kbox and goin to loiter ard
29th-go Sitex and in the evening ... go back to indonesia
4rd dec- workworkwork!!!! money money money!!!

so damn despo for money!!! i want buy so many things and most importantly i wan to go taiwan!!! yeah so happy that i gt a new zen vision m... what i can say is tt it is simply fanstatic... love it to dotx sia... so if i lost it or wat... think i would be super duper sad sia...

dreaming abt flh

2007-10-22T17:15:00.000+08:00

haha... since last night... even now i dun get to go to jin qu jiang.. i'm already satisfied... coz i dream of my beloved faherenheit... they are so close and we even play together... they are so damn realistic.. thou i know it's a dream... but the feeling was really very very nice.. thou i hope they would really walk out of my dream.. and few days ago, i dreamt of yalun too... isn't it so nice to dream of them every night... i can get to see them and get close to them so near... haha.. this is even better than seeing them in real thou the excitement of seeing them in real is another different thing.. haha

jin qu

2007-10-21T20:06:00.000+08:00

Haix... damn sad... I can't get to go to Jin Qu Jiang 2007.. coz gt stupid A level... this yr gt all my fav starzz lo... my beloved fahrenheit or i should say.. yalun.. and tank and angela and more... plus if u buy tix u get to go to fahrenheit gathering leh... u know gathering!!! i can really get to see yalun!!! so better pray hard tt he dun come... but he dun come wld mean tt sth happen to him and tt's mean he's in hospital again... so i rather he be healthy and safe rather than dun come...tt poor guy just gt into hospital again on 18th oct lo... and late at night...even if he come ... i will still get to see him on tv... but's at least thank god tt they nt havin any autograph session or even concert during this period!!! oh man i'm getting crazy over yalun!! help!! muz stop this stupid idoling shit... shld i go to airport n c them?? think better nt.. study hard and next time can get to see them too.. it's nt tt they wld disappear... but hope they really won't disappear jus like 5566.. now wan c them also can't... but come to think.. fahrenheit is really so popular and so damn busy... fancy ppl goin to mediacorp and q buy tix now.. actually if it's me i also will... and they only come singapore for one day... nope.. less than one day i should say.. damn sian... so many activities comin up but A's is just around the corner... should i go??? oh man!!!

Fahrenheit:
27 October 2007
SaturdayDeparture at 10.30AM from Hong Kong To SingaporeFlight
SQ 857Arrival at 2.10PM at Singapore Changi Airport

28 October 2007 SundayDeparture at 8.35AM from Singapore to TaipeiFlight
SQ 872

FANS GATHERING

Angela:
《百變張韶涵世界巡迴Angela’s Live@Taipei演唱會-台北場DVD》簽唱會28th October, Sunday3.30pmBugis Square (Bugis Junction Level 1)

Tank:
some activities on 26 Oct.. haven't reveal.

Farewell

2007-10-17T20:34:00.000+08:00

yeah... farewell... school really end... i'm so glad tt i didn't miss out this day... and guess what get to see lots of things tt really astonished me... cassie leong was dancing and singing on the stage and he was really hot!!! took quite a lot of photos... and really this day is gonna be remembered for sure.. on second thoughts...it was really a very memorable joruney... thru' out this 2 yrs... lots of things to rmb and also lots of things tt i shan't rmb.. get to know a lot of friends and also my cute juniors.. some favourite and memorable things tt I love to do in school and related to school ... haha:)

1. ponning lessons (to go hm and slack)
2. dozing off durin lec (monotonous voice of lecturers are just nice lullaby)
3.drawing and doodling manga on my notes (there are nice fig. appearing sometimes)
4.playing bingoto kill time (when the lecturers are really shrewd n fierce like the ..)
5.going to co room and play my fav cello (definitely nt prac. but trying some pop. songs out)
6. goin to toilet almost every break (but school seems like trying to save resources and make everyone share a common toilet roll)
7. use to play carom and goin to the sc to sleep (while always being woke up by some coucillors) 8.q-in at the malay stall for my fav. stingray and mutton (talking and joking with the very nice auntie)
9. making fun of mr liang (which he didn't know about the common big joke we had bout him) 10.listening to ms faizah in class --> oops' (she's really a nice CT..)
11. trying to stand mr chan lameness (really sorry for nt doing well all e time..haha and i really always didn't see you in the morning so don't misunderstood tt i dao u)
12. trying to peek at ms tan manicure and look at her new hairstyle every once and then( thou didn't manage to see how many carats is the wedding ring)
13. listening to mrs new throwing sarcasm at the guys (it's really an art to shoot others with chimology and sarcasm)
14.talking about how mr chay like to flirt with girls..(he's kind of an extinct nice PE teacher) 15.goin to east coast park to play after exams with my dear friends (tze wei... stop wearing FBT to ecp and getting scratches on your butt and thighs)
16.having meetings tt are sometimes ptless with co exco, mdm hue and ms wong (still rmb of some bad things tt i shan't say but wl know..)
17.having celebrations after some co events with mdm hue nice food(thanks for the car ride)
18. eatin buffet with yunguan and sometimes nick(nick ah.. sstop callin me my name for fun)
19. eating cup noodles in the midnight of the camp when we are supposed to sleep...(but practicall stay up and play some stupid music quiz the whole night)

yup.. after a level ... lots of things and programmes..goin to work for a short period to cope up wth my huge spendings...even thou i gt sponsor..haha my dad... but still i don't think i will have enough to spend.. looking so forward... chalets every now and then, going to thailand, genting and back to indonesia... of course no more ttaiwan.. sad case... and learning my bahasa indonesian, guitar and my japanese!!!

this is wat we gave ms faizah!!! so cute!!

yeah... farewell... school really end... i'm so glad tt i didn't miss out this day... and guess what get to see lots of things tt really astonished me... cassie leong was dancing and singing on the stage and he was really hot!!! took quite a lot of photos... and really this day is gonna be remembered for sure..
on second thoughts...it was really a very memorable joruney... thru' out this 2 yrs... lots of things to rmb and also lots of things tt i shan't rmb.. get to know a lot of friends and also my cute juniors.. some favourite and memorable things tt I love to do in school and related to school ... haha:)
1. ponning lessons (to go hm and slack)
2. dozing off durin lec (monotonous voice of lecturers are just nice lullaby)
3.drawing and doodling manga on my notes (they are nice fig. sometimes)
4.playing bingo to kill time (when the lecturers are really shrewd n fierce like the )
5.going to co room and play my fav cello (definitely nt prac. but trying some pop. songs out)
6. goin to toilet almost every break (but school seems like trying to save resources and make everyone share a common toilet roll)
7. use to play carom and goin to the sc to sleep (while always being woke up by some coucillors)
8.q-in at the malay stall for my fav. stingray and mutton (talking and joking with the very nice auntie)
9. making fun of mr liang (which he didn't know about the common big joke we had bout him)
10.listening to ms faizah in class --> oops' (she's really a nice CT..)
11. trying to stand mr chan lameness (really sorry for nt doing well all e time..haha and i really always didn't see you in the morning so don't misunderstood tt i dao u)
12. trying to peek at ms tan manicure and look at her new hairstyle every once and then( thou didn't manage to see how many carats is the wedding ring)
13. listening to mrs new throwing sarcasm at the guys (it's really an art to shoot others with chimology and sarcasm)
14.talking about how mr chay like to flirt with girls..(he's kind of an extinct nice PE teacher)
15.goin to east coast park to play after exams with my dear friends (tze wei... stop wearing FBT to ecp and getting scratches on your butt and thighs)
16.having meetings tt are sometimes ptless with co exco, mdm hue and ms wong (still rmb of some bad things tt i shan't say but wl know..)
17.having celebrations after some co events with mdm hue nice food(thanks for the car ride)
18. eatin buffet with yunguan and sometimes nick(nick ah.. sstop callin me my name for fun)

yup.. after a level ... lots of things and programmes..goin to work for a short period to cope up wth my huge spendings...even thou i gt sponsor..haha my dad... but still i don't think i will have enough to spend.. looking so forward... chalets every now and then, going to thailand, genting and back to indonesia... of course no more ttaiwan.. sad case... and learning my bahasa indonesian, guitar and my japanese!!!

yalun

2007-10-10T18:47:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh!!! simply can't stop myself from watching zhong ji yi jia ever since yalun appear... he's simply so funny and so cute... u would never imagine tt he can act till like tt... simply love him to dotz... and what's more he look really cute when he a bit se... can't imagine that right... me too... but he is really really cute!!! bet tze wei must have the same thotx too... if dun have den she must be over muggin for bio... hahaha!! i muz really stop and ctrl myself from using com... coz A level is really not far away!!! kambate...

ducktours

2007-10-06T21:10:00.001+08:00

waah... finally prelims over... and my results simply sux... haha... now really the last lap to go... u make, u make it... u can't make it... u simply can't... reality is just tt cruel... ha.. ha.. ha..

Today went to the Me and my local friend day.. and of coz i m definitely nt the local one...went on the Hippo Ride and Ducktours... which i long wanted so... and finally get to reaelise my dreams... well.. it was quite fun and get to know stuff tt i are really astonishing... like there is this building tt looks like a sheet of paper.. and there is this mosque where one part of the building was make of soya sauce bottle... cool right? imagine one day the glass simply crack... lol...

The Ducktours of course is another highlight.. so cool.. just dunno how this duck works... can go online and in the sea... well the road part was really a bumpy one... and made my butt so itchy..lol... coz the chair was vibrating.. haha,... and Guess wat??? we got a handsome lad for our ducktour guide... his hair a bit like darren.. and he look like a korean... he was born in 1986.. AND HE IS LAME.. he said a very stupid joke and i was like hahaha... and didn't realise tt i was rather loud and almost every1 was like staring at me.. lol... anyway... on further look he was quite Niang too.. coz he was rather one...

From observation... i shld say... to be a tour guide.. one must really very extrovert... and can self entertain... coz he was like trying very hard to keep us entertain.. but of coz... well.. so those who really want and loves to be tour guide... must learn to joke and entertain others from now.. haha..train from young..

yESTERdAY went to q for my beloved donuts again...and this time round i bought 2 dozen... coz last time gt reprimand by my brother.. saying why i bought so little... and the day before went to eat suki sushi... and i ate 5 plates of my fav IKA SASHIMI... tt's was simple yummy!!! next time shall go there again.. and eat more IKA SASHIMI... coz i was really cockeye.. and didn't saw the sashimi..so ate quite a few ika sushi at first and it was rather filling...aiyah!! on the whole... this few days i am like having fun and eating ... the last moment before death right?? lolx.

Still in love with Ryan .. he simply a nice nice guy and of course not forgetting my Yalun... He's really getting cuter and more charming... waahaha.. and he is like so so cute and lame in X-family... so lame that i feel like arrghh... anyway... dun chase after to ask me who's ryan ... if u know u know.. u dunno... u will nv know.

Gong Zhu Xiap mei

2007-09-13T16:24:00.000+08:00

hey hey... prelims almost over... and of course no need to ask for the results... it's really a 'superb' result..haha... after watching x family ... think the show is really so damn nice n lame... lame show is really a very nice entertainment for me... thou the show was rather touching at times... esp their family ties.. sadly...after watching for so long .. my darling Yalun still haven't come out... lol... anyway Gong Zhu Xiao Mei goin to air!!! Oh yes!! 16 Sep... 2 more days to go! whoo hoo!! it's been a long time since i saw Angela acting... it's really a very very nice show!!! rated no.1... so ppl muz support the show... there's not much time left... soi must start studying and work hard for my A levels!!! coz there's really lots of exciting activities waiting for me after tt... muahaha!!! Jia You ba... for myself and of coz to everyone!!!

donut factory

2007-08-31T21:22:00.000+08:00

whee.. exam almost over... still left with e few days... all the previous exam all announce death !!! how can i ever cure my stupidity?? or should i say... when will my eyes ever read qn carefully!!!! arggh!! this is even more irritating than not knowing how to do the qn... forget about the papers... i can predict my results... it will be terribly lousy... nvm ... one more chance.. the last leap!i must find a way to cure my idiotic problem!
today is shiyun b'day!! Happy Birthday... u grew older!! HAHA!! As old as me!! and today went to q for donuts at raffles ... the donut are so cute and yummy!!! the apple cinnamon is damn nice!!! The q is damn long la...q for almost 3h ... wow! will go again next time... and this time round goin to buy 2 dozen... cause my bro also wan!!! at first he thotx i buy normal donut as i nv ask him properly... i only ask whether he wan to buy donut... but after takin the box of donut home... he was drooling.. haha... luckily i gt but extra flavour... today sth stupid happen when i was buying the donuts again... went to look at wat flavours they have... then coz i nv wear specs so misread spicy cheese n satay cheese... so when i was ordering the 4 boxes of donut..i wa so proud coz i said spicy cheese...till the last box i say satay cheese... n the person was like laughing and say nt a bad idea... can try... so lol... therefore..if next time.. ever if u go and buy donut and there is satay cheese.. then all thanks to me.. but dun think will have coz this combi is a bit weird!!!
Kaya White ChocStrawberry White Choc

Peanut Dark ChocMint Dark Choc

Double chocRaspberry Dark Choc

Hazelnut Dark ChocBlueberry Glazed
Apple Cinnamon haha... my box of donuts!

Money

2007-08-24T16:31:00.000+08:00

went to the bank with my mum few days ago to exchange the new $20 tt sg come out together with brunei to commemorate the same curreny rate .. then was like fliiping thru my notes collection.. didn't realise i have so much... so proud with myself... smuck... :)
the new $20 sg n brunei note
bird series $1
bird series $5
bird series $10
bird series $20

boat series $1
boat series $2
special boat series $2
boat series $5

boat series $10

unique millenium $2

orchid series $50

expiry

2007-08-02T17:02:00.000+08:00

every single things on earth will have its end. or i should say even non-living things. paper will turn yellow and when it's being eaten up by some disgusting insects... phew! there's it.. gone! n most importantly even our Earth have its end.. it's approaching its end but when will it meet its end?? it's yet to be known... have u ever wonder when it's ur end? and how u want to meet ur end.. how u want urself to end??? i wondered about mine too.. well,perhaps soon it'll be my end.. perhaps it'll be a pretty ending or perhaps it'll be a tragic ending... will i choose to end it myself?? mayb. OR will others end it for me??not sure.
on the more 'positive' outlook, ending might suggest a new beginning.. but is it really so?? nobody knows.. those who cannot face up to their life might really choose another new life, a new beginning... by ending what they have n what they are now.. perhaps i should try the legendary ' end'... i know it'd rather stupid to end everything what u have.. but if u really cannot take it... wouldn't it good to let it all go??

UNEQUAL

2007-07-29T17:04:00.000+08:00

well... it's really been ages since i blog again... many things had happened...and of course both happy and sad... i'm now officially step down from co treasurer... it's kinda of relaxed and sad... coz no matter what u had been holding tt post for rather long. had lots of things to said but just dunno hold to start... feel so stressed and with many many things bottled up... maybe one day when it's filled to the brim... i might just uncapped it.. and who knows what will happen.. perhaps i might just disappear quietly... ermm.. wEll, the world is filled with so grievance, unhappiness and inequality... It's just because of all these... ppl fight and strive for the best.. ppl fight for equality, ppl fight for their happiness but do they really get what they want in the end??? or they lose even more? if all these could just disappear...wouldn't it be so nice??? then we would live in this Eutopia state.. everyone giving their real smile and not putting up show in front of others..oh well... ha..ha..ha.. the world is just cruel and ppl kill, fight so tt when everyone is wiped out... we'll have another new world...and then there would be some peace..n somehow there would be a few troublemakers and oh no! the world would be in chaos again...and this is just like a karma...it goes round and round... and nv ending...

east coast before death

2007-06-24T14:36:00.001+08:00

haha...went east coast yesterday... so long nv go le... so fun... really love skating lotx!!! superduper tired... skate all the way to bedok jetty and back... wth... think shld have lose quite a lot of calories..hahaha... lol... but went to eat mac after tt...so..wasted the effort...haha... it's been quite a long time since the whole family went together... and esp when everyone knows how to skate... tt kind of speeding feeling...shiok... ARRGH!!!feel like going again... think the beginner court shldn't call beginner court lo... shld call pro court! everyond there so pro.. CAN DO stunts sia... somemore their skates so nice... my skates...like shit.... i want buy new shoes!!! i want learn stunts!!! i can only turn a circle!!! super lousy! ppl sure scold me siao.. next wk block test... or rather mon econs liao still go east coast... nv stay at hm to study... what's the pt of mugging when everyone else is mugging so hard?? it's just a block test... but of course cannot do very badly too la... i don't wan msp! or pmt!

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