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Tuesday, March 15, 2011
4:01 PM
oh great . i got another brother =)
a nice brother that can play with me =)
it's nice to have a big brother.

somehow i feel that wk n bro is not as close as i first knew them.
i don't know why i felt this way but somehow sixth sense told me so.
perhaps i was wrong.


Thursday, March 10, 2011
3:57 PM
life is seriously freaking boring right now.
i dunno wat i m searching or living for..
everything is so screwed up.
i seriously dun like the way i m now.
there's no motivation for me to excel in everything.
but yet i still have to carry on with what im doin in everything.

i don't like to go home.
but i still ahve to go home.
i don't like to go school either.
but i still need to go school.

can anyone please tell me what im supposed to do?



Saturday, March 05, 2011
1:30 AM
想通了。。日子似乎好过一些。
什么都不想。。
每天一觉醒来, 做自己一天该做的事。。
上学。。
和朋友吃饭, 鬼混。。
补习赚更多钱。。
到游乐场所闲晃。。。
把自己搞得很累。
然后回到家再一头倒下去睡到天亮。。

这样其实也不错。

自由自在,没有烦恼,乐在其中。
或许这也是逃避所有问题的最好方法吧。。


Wednesday, February 23, 2011
1:48 AM
你相信神的存在嗎?
如果信, 那麽你相信惡魔的存在嗎?
還是兩者皆非,那是不是主張無神論?

我相信神,也相信魔鬼的存在。
在這世界上,永遠都是正邪不兩利。
神的存在就是爲了抵抗魔鬼的惡勢力。
有好人必然就會有壞人。
好人是神,是上天派來造福世界。
而壞人是魔鬼,是地獄派來的破壞者。

好人壞人,這因人而定。
然而,神與魔是不是因人而定呢?
不管是好人還是壞人,最終還是會有終結的一天。
然而,神與魔會不會有終結的一天?

或許人就是需要一點證據,一點事故和一點時間才會相信有神的存在。
對於我而言,這一切都發生了,所以我相信神。
如果沒有信仰,或許我已陷入魔鬼的煉獄中。
只要相信,神依然會眷顧你,將你擁入他的懷中。

對於無神論者,信也好不信也罷,只要不褻瀆神明。
只要有一天你願意相信他,神還是會保佑你。
不相信並不代表不存在,是因爲抗拒接受。
當然也不能阻止魔鬼惡意地傷害你,慢慢地將你吞噬,
或許也儅這一切發生時,無神論者才會選者相信神。


Sunday, February 13, 2011
1:33 AM
met up with wk.
he brought a friend along.
went sentosa to watch cny performance.
saw daddy there. what a coincidence. ^^

this friend of his was funny.
he did the same stupid thing as me, keeping a hamster in the cupboard, when he was small.
after that we went for sushi. yeah. i love sushi =)
then followed on by kbox with drinking session.
we clique well.i dun like the other guy. he seems cocky.
well, i should not say this. but somehow i just feel this way.
we shared barcardi. however, it seems tt wk's friend and me was the one who kept drinkin?
whatever. im glad that i hold my liquor rather well. otherwise i would be drunk.


Friday, February 11, 2011
1:43 AM
called daddy for lunch but daddy was not free.
he got to work and told me to go over to his house to help his mum.
so i headed there at night to help auntie.
sis was there too.. but stayed for only a while.
soon, daddy was back.
he was damn hungry and gobbled up the packet of rice on the table.
poor daddy.... he said that he didnt have anything for today.
he wanted to meet me for lunch but... he's sorry.
stayed over at his place as both of us were really tired after the praying.





Tuesday, February 08, 2011
1:23 AM
daddy 說:大人的事你小孩不必管那麼多啊。。。
我又沒有管很多,只是我想不通。一時接受不來。

daddy 說:那你在乎什麼啊?
因爲他們是我最重要的人,所以我才那麽在乎。可是又能怎樣呢?

daddy說:晚輩的不能做太多,所以不要想。
對阿。。即使做再多,也於事無補。
daddy說:don't think too much.U can't change anything anymore
我知道。這一切都發生好久好久。
一時之間,我还是很難接受
或許再給我一點點時間。

既然事實是殘酷的。。
daddy說:Be Cool.
所以,我是應該繼續保持沉默,對嗎?還是客客氣氣的?

daddy說:不然你還能想要改變什麼?
我不知道。我真的不知道。也不想知道

或許daddy是對的。just remain the old self.
也就像阿伯說的:什麽都不要去想,想多了會發瘋。每天起來做你該做的事就好了。
當時阿伯說的話一句刺進了心坑裏。
頓時閒,我哽咽,我落淚。慶幸那裏一片漆黑。


或許我真得很快就要發瘋了


Sunday, February 06, 2011
1:06 AM

It's chinese new year but i'm not happy at all.

i can't believe that this is what you have for me.

why can't you just think a litttle bit more ?

why can't you just spend that little more time ?

is this really that difficult? is it really that torturous??

if you don't like it, fine. just scram as fas as you can.

stop all the pretence. - busy is just an excuse. an utter lousy excuse.

fine.fine.fine. you spoilt everything.

I so wanted to hate you. but i can't.



Tuesday, November 23, 2010
1:22 AM
期待。。
喜悅。。
心動。。
感動。。

無法形容的快樂。。再此暖和了一顆冰冷的心。。
歷經了許多挫折,人生的起起落落。
熾熱的心被澆滅了, 也變得心力交瘁。。

對任何的事和物也只能抱著
既来之,则安之的態度。。
期望,希望根本就沒有它們存在的價值
更不用説是興奮與快樂。。

算了吧。隨你吧。你想怎樣就怎樣。。
這一切我根本就不在乎!!反正心也死了。
快樂。。再也不屬於我的。

又或者它從來就不屬於我。

心裏面的這些話從來都不想讓任何人知道。。
當然微笑就是最好的保護色。。

曾以爲破碎的心已無法體會到
什麽是快樂。。一份發自内心的快樂。。
什麽是激動。。一份讓人落淚的激動。。

如今,這種似曾相似的感覺又悄悄的。。
鑽進了冷落的心窩裏。。
只有你有如此神奇的力量,如此超凡的魅力。。

讓這顆心不在感到無比的冷漠。。
讓眼淚再度從迷惘的眼眶中落下
讓臉頰再度感受到眼淚的濕與熱。。


Tuesday, November 09, 2010
1:15 AM
我找不到快乐,也被快乐给遗忘了。
当你不快乐时,不管怎么玩,你都不会有任何欢乐的感觉。
当你不快乐时,时间有如度日如年。
当你不快乐时,你的笑容也显得特别的虚伪。


Wednesday, June 30, 2010
1:43 PM
Nice to bully right?
Nice to play with right?
Nice to quarrel with right?
Nice to make fun of right?
Nice to throw sarcasm right?

DAMN.


Saturday, June 26, 2010
3:37 AM
第一句
如果我們之間有1000步的距離
我會走完999步
剩下的1步由你來完成

第二句
通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人
才是真正愛你的人

第三句
付出真心 才會得到真心 卻也可能傷得徹底
保持距離 就能保護自己 卻也注定永遠寂寞

第四句
有時候 不是對方不在乎你 而是你把對方看得太重

第五句
朋友就是把你看透了 還能喜歡你的人

第六句
就算是believe 中間也藏了一個lie

第七句
真正的好朋友
並不是在一起就有聊不完的話題
而是在一起 就算不說話
也不會感到尷尬

第八句
沒有一百分的另一半 只有五十分的兩個人

第九句
為你的難過而快樂的 是敵人
為你的快樂而快樂的 是朋友
為你的難過而難過的 就是那些 該放進心裡的人

第十句
冷漠 有時候並不是無情 只是一種避免被傷害的工具



2:48 AM
Simply love travelling.
Relax. Eat. Play. Shop. n Grow Fat. lols
Best. Drinks are really cheap.
I Love It.
Red Wine. Everything Gonna be OK.
It's Detoxification TIME.

I totally agrees.
We think differently.
We have different perception.
I like the way I'm now.
Whatever will be, will be.
Whatever it's yours, it's yours.






Monday, June 21, 2010
1:33 AM
Spending two days at Sin Tua is fun.
People thr are v friendly.
I think my Hokkien needs to improve even more.
and I want to learn Canto!



Thursday, June 10, 2010
2:19 AM
Oh yeah. HAPPY HAPPY 21ST!!!

Went back indo for hols.
Went resort. Nice. Pretty. Relax.
Celebrated my bday. party. dinner.
Didn't know I gt so many relatives.
Handfuls of nephews n nieces.
Best- my nieces watch Sailormoon too in the era.

Received many hongbaos.
Many Handbags! -.-
Y gif me so many handbags.Pierre Cardin. Hermes.
THANKS ALL FOR THE EVERYTHING.

I gotta cake phobia. Wish. Blow Cut.Cut.Cut. Eat.Eat.Eat.
OMG.
Gained weight. Many Many Kgs. Terrible. -.-

Looking forward for sun.
See how ppl look like. HAHA.
Ms/Mr Well dressed!




Tuesday, May 18, 2010
10:47 PM
OMG. STUNNED.


Sunday, May 16, 2010
9:16 PM
YAY!!! so happy today...
went shopping...hohohoho...
bought all the things i want!!!muahaha..
after soooo long..

I'm happy. The shop also happy. my wallet also very 'happy'.
Wahaha.. I bought my wallet !!! n..... s1 bought too... -.o Awww!
I LOVE NEW LOOK!
Summer Romance is really damn sweet la.
Now I seriously think the Swarovski earstuds is useless..
haha. it look so normal except tt it BLINKS.

Now only left with ipod touch and my hp (waiting for recontract...)....
my bro kept saying i gt no use for ipod touch...
since both my mp3s haven spoil yet... BUT FUN LEH!
Argh!!!!! should I buy?

I realise tt everyone is asking me what bday present I want...
but I think I just bought almost everything today? lols.xx, rite?
Perhaps I should really go think hard. before I get stuffs like
ONE BIG BOTTLE OF STARS!
though it's filled with sincerity.. but I gt no place to store.
mama wld end up putting tt at one dark corner in a plastic bag.


Friday, May 14, 2010
12:27 AM
Went to play badminton yest. FUN =)
Both arms aching this morning.

Was walking in the carpark and
I banged my head against the wall
WHICH I DIDN'T SEE.

This is freaking pain.
Went dizzy and sat down on the floor for a while.
I think I had a bump on the top of my head.

Now,I know why kids wail hysterically when they fell n knocked their head...
cause it's really very pain.

One word- suey!




Sunday, May 09, 2010
10:59 PM
Yeah. get to eat all my chicken wings :)hohoho

Happy Mother's Day to all Mama.
Hope that all mama in the world had a Happy Mama's Day.
Went for a big feast @ Din Tai Fung.
ordered A LOT.100+. siao. nvm.
As we looked around,
we sat at an area where all the tables are either caucasians or foreigners ie. japanese etc.
after each table is cleared, new diners tt are directed to tt area are still foreigners. lols.

Wanted to go helix bridge after that but..
ate too full.so too tired.
end up shopping at ION.

bought my jeans. finally.
oh yeah (oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah hey..lols.)
one more things off my shopping list.
next wk shall go shopping again=)






Saturday, May 08, 2010
1:24 AM
Finally exam is over.
Though I think I did like shit.
Time to play.
I should be very free now.
However, it seems that I am even busier now.

Hais.
So many things to do.
So many places to go.
So many things to buy.
So many things on my mind.
I need lots of time.
I need time to complete everything.
I need time to forget some things.
I really need time.

Vexed.Tired.Confused.


Saturday, May 01, 2010
11:36 PM
saw lion dance performance. though not performed by nam sieng but Nice.
Bravo.
Nam Sieng is awesome. Grand event.
Some Traditional stuffs are really nice.

I should study for now.but nth goes into my mind.


Friday, April 30, 2010
12:46 AM
idiot.miserable.bang wall. go die.


Sunday, April 25, 2010
10:39 PM
I want nobody nobody but u... u... u...
slowly u'll be mine=)
earrings.wallet.itouch.phone.skates.bag.Hols.play.

need to go get many things,many things done n fixed.
i'd been a good girl =p
i miss chicken wings.


Wednesday, April 21, 2010
3:03 AM
I really need to sort out everything after exams.
Too many things on my mind.
Too many things for me to bother.
Some things seems to stuck down there forever.
Though I do wish that they would just go away on its own.
The farther I tried to chase them away, the nearer they would love to approach me.
I think I really need some help regardless it's good or bad.
Perhaps I should just face it and stop shunning.

For now, I shall mug and stop wasting my time.



Thursday, April 15, 2010
6:13 PM
had been slpin late recently.
3am. 5am. 8am.
at this rate i'm going...
i would never recover from my illness!!
sorethroat, cough, running nose...
PLS GET LOST!


Wednesday, April 14, 2010
11:50 PM
Cn't believe that I actually forsake the free mayday concert tickets because of my report..
OH wells.. that's just too bad... if it's tml then I will go for it..

on the wallet search =)
Bonia having sale. so tempted to buy but designs nt very nice.
Pierre cardin new design not too bad but shall go search properly after exams..

Yeah ..so looking forward to itouch =)
n many many things. during hols =)
can go on a shopping n hols spree..




Sunday, April 11, 2010
3:05 PM
生病。烦恼。郁闷。压力。忧郁。难过。寂寞。无聊。无奈。


Saturday, April 03, 2010
2:55 PM
Decided not to buy bonia wallet anymore.
I want go shop for nice leather wallet.
My pierre cardin spoiling. sobs. =(
and my dumb dumb ck watch kept kanna scratched.Sian.

NVM. I shall go shopping after exams... HAHAHAHA
and pxxxxxxg...=)
one more term paper to complete.
Somebody help me!

Kept pressing the wrong key on my hp.
and ended up calling the wrong ppl.
sry if i did miss called you.

zirca was fun.
many youngsters there.
and many ah bengs. haha.
many guys shuffling. lightstick dance was cool.
next time should try. lols!
oh wells. there's five funny fellow down there

1. There is this yellow shirt guy who was sitting alone next to our table..and he kept turning to stare . weird. yucks.
2. There is this old malay guy who was like revolving around ... and he look so...PERVERT! shoo.
3.There is this guy who stand behind me and staring.. at least for 5s before leaving.or maybe he just want the aircon to cool himself down.
4. There is this long,coarse-haired guy who was trying to 插一脚 on the dance stage while the others were happily dancing there.HAHA. super hilarious.
5. There is this 19 year old angmoh who came to crap with us and oh wells....trying to make FRIENDs.hha

All thanks to that angmoh.. we discover the dark side of Clark quay... some angmohs or perhaps some ppl actually go there to look for transexual hookers or maybe hookers...omg! TRANSEXUAL. . and I REALLY cannot believe this. Doesn't this only happen in Geylang?

The security guard at zirca is quite nice-looking. but chicken wings are even yummier !
xx said I had a tinge for bengs (which I dun think so)and eating chicken wings at the club.

LUNAR was ..... old.
REBEL was... havoc and smelly.

New discovery-
Typical ah bengs seems to have fringe.
have their Polo's collar up.
love to walk as if the road is theirs.
have drawers.
haha.


Friday, March 26, 2010
1:43 AM
Feel like getting so many things recently!!!
Had the irritating feeling of MONEY NT ENOUGH!
Some of the things I want are almost impossible.HAHA.

I want an itouch! I want to shiseido! I want to dye hair!
I want an E72 or blackberry! I want to buy a Bonia wallet!
I want NDSI! I want a pair of new skates!
I want a Universal Annual Pass! I want a car!
I want so many many things..... AH!!! A BOMB!

At this rate I'm spending, I would be dead soon.
I think it's a wise choice to get a rich husband.
But rich husband~~~ usually they are uncles.
[erm. I considered 25 and above-->uncles(no offence) coz my xiaoshu is only 25? and my xiaojiu like 32? not very old.. but calling them shu shu and jiujiu somehow do affect me.]
If not, their parents are rich. But what's the point? spending parents' money.

Oh wells, I think it's still better to drain myself rather than depending on a rich husband.
What's more, guys are not that reliable and trustworthy after all.

I need a guardian angel! Protect me from danger. Take away my worries and troubles. Grant me my wishes (perhaps that's more of a fairy godmama). Listen to my sorrows!!! Bring joy to me:)

Random quote: love is kinda blind. U won't know when you fall in love with the person or why did you fall in love with that person. Somehow, you behave idiotically and do stupid things for no reason.

I don't get it...perhaps when I fall in love then everything would fall in place. I think falling in love is hard but getting hurt by or falling out of love is much easier.

Deleting in progress!!!!!!!
Stop recovering the deleted memory!!!
This is never ending. Agony.


Tuesday, March 09, 2010
9:36 PM
最近好多事要做!!!
好多好多报告要赶!但没关系。。
一切就快要过去了。。 加油!!
只要再多一下下,一切就会告一段落。
放了一个星期的假,
总觉得还没休息够。
这一个星期,玩得好凶,
当然功课还是没被忽略掉。

Clubbing真的很好玩。
一个星期就去了三次。
可是。。还是要看是去什么地方和什么人去。(有的人超high的!)
Zirca很棒!而且无时无刻都超high 的。
无意中还有free show 观赏。。shuffle 再回蒙一笑..哈哈哈
DXO的live band 还蛮不错的。
重点是无限量饮料供应,饮料里的酒精超少的,
喝了十杯还是没有任何一丝的醉意.
对了,那里的鸡翅膀好好吃!
BUTTER FACTORY SUX!

是时候收拾贪玩的心,努力K书!!!
可是似乎好难哦!
天啊..怎么办?!救救我吧。我该怎么开始?

原来要忘记一些事和人,一点都不简单。
你越是刻意想要忘记,它却会刻意的浮现。
天下无难事,我一定会做到的,一定会把这一切都删除掉。


Monday, February 22, 2010
3:54 AM
yeah.. ^^v
I'm so happy. Once again,I'm back to indo for chinese new year.
Been seeing my friends returning back to malaysia for New year and somemore they looked like they enjoyed themselves a lot.esp with fire crackers and fire works. though i know THEY REALLY ARE.This makes me super envy sia!!! but nvm..
since i didn't get the chance to go back on the first few days of new year...It's never too late to go back right now becoz NEW YEAR HAVEN'T END!
There's still celebration going on and... ppl will still gif u hongbaos:)

hohoho.. get a lot of Hongbaos... and the best thing is ..
rupiah had gone up. though i dun haf the intention to change it to sgd.
get to eat lots of yummy food and cny goodies. think growing even fatter liao.
feel as if tt i stuffed 6 days of food into my poor stomach in two days. SO GUILTY.
and of course I GET to see my firecrackers and fireworks... HAD GREAT FUN!
i think i'm damn humchee la. I wasn't DARING enough to go and light up the firecrackers coz I'm SCARED OF FIRE!!! (thou my 8 yr old cousin dare!) BUT...
i still play with the dumbass fireworks.. PRETTY:)
OH WELLS... Y DUN SG ALLOW fireworks n crackers?

This is a super HIGH CNY tt I ever had. think this will be the first and perhaps the last?
Went clubbing with my uncle and aunt.(coz I wasn't told that we were goin to club!)
I was in horrible TSHIRT, SHORT and SANDALS! though the entrance wrote strictly NO SHORTS,SANDALS.
Luckily, all thanks to my uncle coz he's a VIP. so I passed with this idiotic kiddish look and gt a reserved table too thou the place was damn crowded.I looked TOTALLY like a kid while everyone else in thr was in a clubbin outfit.
(want to fish also cnnt la. jkin.)
This kiddish look made me dun dare to step into the dance floor.Even if I feel like dancing...
NVM.. we ended dancing at our own table. HAHA.SUPER HIGH. My aunt and uncle were like havin HOT dance. Lots of Caucasians there and they were at least 100x high-er than us! They were like TANGO-ing at the dance floor la.
Drank a lot! coz the atmosphere was good with live band, drink was cheap and that i need nt worry who will send me hm if i were drunk.. so it's safe enuf to drink:)
think I drank like perhaps 4 glass of ILLUSION=SEX ON THE DRIP @ clinic C and perhaps ard 7 mugs of heineken? the waitress keep comin to cheer with us.
almost DROP DEAD! think i was almost drunk but haven't lose my consciousness. i still know wat was goin on ard me.(at least now i know my limits, so xx fear nt! I'll protect u!)
I dunno y i took my uncle's hp and i thot i lose my hp.
I thot i din took out my contacts before goin to slp but i actually did jus tt somehow I couldn't recall when i took it out.
I was almost dozing off when i was cleaning myself up.
Everyone else claimed that I was drunk thou I dun think I was. (perhaps drunkards dun admit tt they are drunk.)
I was told by my aunt tt her baby daughter (she's only two yrs old) loved tiger beer and kept dranking non-stop. Though she took the can by mistake and the adults din realise tt.
LOLS. COOL.PRO.
Just realise tt my aunt go married like ard 21? wth. so damn young.and realise tt my paternal side smallest uncle was like only 25 yrs old and I called in xiaoshu?!and his gf the most older than me by 2-4 years? this is so -.-''
Now, i think i know why I always think ppl who are perhaps 25 n above are uncle to me liao. (xx: i started laughing when my xiaoshu shuai his fringe! he was damn puzzled. tell u ar. 'DAMN SHUAI'!)

I simply love clubbin.I know this isn't a good sign.I also realise tt I'd been drinking a lot recently and that the amt of liquor i cn hold is increasing enormously.It's good in the sense tt.. it's hard for ppl to get me DRUNK.hoho. but.... too much alcohol is bad for health..SERIOUSLY, I think I should ctrl myself and stay away from liquor but... ITS HARD!

DUN CARE LE LA. JUST DRINK. gonna go to DFS to stock up more @ home:)


Monday, February 08, 2010
3:38 AM
好开心哦!!! 再度的和亲爱的xx到JB去了。。
首先,本人要在这里向亲爱的致谢。
谢谢你当我的随身马币提款机!
虽然你说你有在养小白脸的feel因为我卖你付。。但。。
要不是有你,我想我可要刷卡了。。亲爱的,谢咯! <33

买了好多东西哦!!!只能说。。
价廉物美,满载而归,心情愉快,荷包大出血!
算一算,星期天好像大概消费了马币三位数的一半。
看起来似乎很多但算一下新币的话,也还好。

虽然一旁有人一直在笑我卖东西的样子
但我似乎好像并没有因此而手软。。
到结尾时还买的更凶。。
我学会一件事,就是想买就买!!!
不要等下一次再回头来买,因为到时就不会再有你很喜欢的东西了!!

星期天扫来的货还真是得来不易啊。。
还蛮衰的,想要买的颜色,尺寸等
不是没有新货就是只省下橱窗上摆放的那一个。。
这难道是天意吗? 是要我省钱? 还是要我另寻新欢?

逛了一天,买了很多。
当然对于服务员的态度,我只能说人靠衣装。
我们确实穿得没怎样,一副小孩子样,
但这并不表示我们买不起,我们就必须遭受你们这些服务烂透的服务员的冷眼!
店面越是越小的,服务员的态度越是烂到无话可说。
你们要是把我惹毛了,我就要你好看!
当然,也有让我非常满意的服务员。
店面越是越大的,服务好像也比较好。
这应该就是他们成功的地方。

星期天的JB只能说是ah bengs 和ah lians 的解放日,
当然俊男美女也不少。。虽然爱甩头发的男生还是比较多。。
哈哈哈。。
对了,男生act cute真的有点恶心。。但有蛮好笑的。哈哈

和亲爱的享受了一顿超丰盛的晚餐。
这件日本料理店的料理。。赞!!
我们两个人就吃了差不多70马币。。
有主菜,刺身,寿司等。。
在店里看到一对情侣拿着金香小熊花束,
超漂亮,超可爱的。
如果有人送我的话,我一定超开心的!
或许我会。。。。

想说就偷拍一下金香小熊花束,当作纪念。。
但那位女生超吝啬的,把花移开,让我们连偷拍的机会也没有。
小姐,你有必要这样吗? 好看的东西不是该和别人分享吗?
更何况我们又不是要占为己有。。
JB之旅就暂时告一段落咯。。哈哈。。

想说阿。
对于一些无名氏的举动,只能说他们确实很无聊。
善者不来,来者不善。
无名氏有必要匿名到别人的部落格留言之后,
再道个歉就当作什么事就没了吗?
对于无名氏的举动,只有懦弱两个字可以形容。
以真实的身份评论难道有那么难吗?
或许对爱躲在黑暗一角的无名氏来说,
这早已是一种习惯。
又或许是无名氏根本就缺乏勇气和胆量,
还是害怕得自己的愚昧之谈会成为他人的笑柄?
这或许也只有无名氏自己最了。

不管怎样。最讨厌的就是偷鸡摸狗的人,
尤其是那些躲在黑暗中伺机别人的恶魔。
你在明,他们在暗。
暗地里捅你一刀,你也不会知道是那个浑球。



Sunday, February 07, 2010
12:59 AM
心情好低落。
好人真的好难做。算了。我是坏人,行了吧?
心理上的不平衡越来越严重,好害怕有一天会失去平衡,整个人也就随即发疯。
我需要一个诉苦的人,可是又有谁能让当我的倾诉者呢?我好烦,可是没人能了解。
可是我却不想让任何人觉得我在博取同情。
我更不需要任何人可憐,我只需要一对能聆听我心事的耳朵。


脸上的笑容是我的伪装,是我的保护色。
我害怕再受到伤害,所以我隐藏自我。


Thursday, February 04, 2010
2:47 PM
昨天偶然的在地铁车厢内看到了一位年轻的妈妈,
抱着应该也只有两三个月大的宝宝?

说那位妈妈年轻应该还不够, 倒不如说她是个漂亮、年轻、有型的贵妇。
霎时间, 脑海里浮现了一个不该有的想法。
其实, 当个年轻的妈妈也不错。 还挺酷的!
而且宝宝又那么的可爱。但重点是绝对不能沦落为黄脸婆。

我知道这个想法有点荒唐也来得很难突然。自己也觉得自己好白痴
当然,想归想。。自己也知道这是不可能的。
最起码在接下来的五年里绝对不会发生。因为。。。
我还没毕业。。更还没为事业打拼。觉得自己一事无成。

至少让我在社会上绕了一圈过后再把我绑起来。

当了几个月的家教,我只能说。。。
我真的好像开始好喜欢小孩。。
他们真的好可爱,好天真。
常常会和我说一些有的没的,
而且偶尔还会把他们亲手画的画送给我。
看到他么这样子,我也不忍心骂他们。

他们有时也会说我喜欢补习又或者说,
如果你是我学校的老师就好了。。
我听了心里也暗爽。
当然,看到他们的成绩有进步我也替他们感到开心。
至少我对他们的努力并没有白费,
他们的父母也么有白白浪费了宝贵的金钱。
偶尔,他们把我教的东西给忘了,我不禁会感到有点失落。
是我对他们的要求太高了吗?还是我只不过想不我的工作做好呢?
我不知道。。
我想应该或许是我遇到的学生都很乖,所以我的恋童症更严重了吧?
又或许我是打从心里的喜欢小孩呢?
我也不知到。。

最近对周遭的是越来越不解。
对于许多事,许多人, 他们所做的事,所说的话,
我都想不通其中的原因或目的。
是应该不去理会还是应该努力的去了解呢?
如果特意的去理会,但最后自己却受到伤害。。又或者事情并不能顺着自己的意。
那不会是自讨没趣呢?又让自己难过呢?
但若有不去理会,到最后却失去了本该属于自己的东西,
那不会得不偿失吗?

我不知道。。觉得人怎么那么复杂?就不能单纯一点吗?
还是这个世界本来就是这样,只是我一直把自己锁在自己的鸟笼里。。还没看清楚。。
或许吧。
如果世界本来就不单纯,而每个都把自己伪装起来保护自己。
那伪装真的是最好的保护色吗?
卸下面具就不会感到疲累吗?不会感到自己很虚伪吗?
难道卸下面具就不能能保护自己吗?
这。。我也不知道答案。

最近觉得好失落,对一些事情也好失望。

做什么事也好像做不好。。笨手笨脚的。
我累了,好想好好的休息一下。

好想让自己人间蒸发几天,什么都不管,就一直这样的睡着。。。
直到休息够了,直到自己想通了。
但这只不过是天方夜谭。
因为我得做的事。。真的太多。太多了。。


Monday, January 18, 2010
4:32 PM
当你不在奢望些什么时,得到的收获却无比的大。
当你不在盼望些什么时,得到的希望却无比的高。
当你不在希望些什么时,得到的惊喜却无比的大。

就让一切顺其自然,
是你的,终究还会是你的。
即使没有做些什么,神明也会冥冥中保佑你。

或许这也是一个好开始,
最起码路人甲这个名号已不存在。

困扰我许久的问题,至少有点头绪。
最起码我得到的答案不再是以往的哪一些:
“故事是虚构的”,“这些人物并不存在”,“我不知道”。。

原来善财童子的道行比莲花童子高。
原来是因为他的恩师比较多。
至于其中原因还并不知所以然。
但至少我现在知道不是因为谁先位列仙班,谁的道行就比较高。


Saturday, January 16, 2010
11:47 PM
你,不要老是取笑我。
你,不要老是挖苦我。
你,不要老是开我玩笑。
你,不要老是拒绝我的约会。
你,不要老是上线又不理我。

你,不要老是上线就提某水果。



你! 你! 你!!!
你,小心有报应!



Sunday, January 10, 2010
10:45 PM
思念。。終究還是會奏效的。
思念。。是一股神奇的力量。


2:37 AM
簡單的幾句話。。
也能讓我心滿意足。
這。。
到底是怎麽一回事?

就到此爲止吧。
不要再奢望些什麽。。
就讓一切歸零。
把想念通通都丟掉。

或許有一天。。被捨棄的想念。。
會被拾起。。
但我想。。
當這份想念被拾到時。。
一切都太遲了。

我缺少了勇氣,有誰能讓我勇敢一點?
我想得到幸福,又有誰能給我我要的幸福?



Wednesday, January 06, 2010
12:52 AM
新的一年, 新的希望。

我希望,世界和平。
我希望,世界不會有末日。
我希望,身邊的人都能幸福快樂。
我希望,我能夠事事順利。
我希望,我不會再想你了。
我希望,我能夠擁有幸福和快樂
我希望,我能夢想成真。

吳小姐,生日快樂。
Hui Min,Happy Birthday.


Sunday, December 13, 2009
3:06 AM
我真的很想忘記,永遠的把這一切都給忘記。
只不過心中的那扇門,始終還是不肯緊緊的関上。

或許是神明在暗地裏保佑著,
這雖然有點不可思議,但還是發生了。
我想我還是幸運的。

突如其來的出現總是讓我不知所措。
但我還是蠻喜歡這种奇妙的感覺. :)
真的好希望這種感覺一直都不會消失。

是我越來越貪心嗎?
還是我根本就不滿足?
是我一直都在欺騙自己?
還是我已經彌足深陷?

又或者這只不過是個過渡期?
時間久了,一切就會淡掉。
心中的那份回憶也會慢慢地被遺忘。

我不知道,我真的不知道。
混亂的思緒不斷地在我腦海裏徘徊,
複雜的情感不停地在我心底処遊蕩。
好討厭的感覺!好討厭現在的我。

我只知道我懂得越來越多,
我只知道我了解的並不少。


Thursday, December 10, 2009
12:13 AM
我想我真的输了。
彻底的败给你。

每一天都看到不一样的你,
我无语。

前天的你,让我惊讶。
昨天的你,让我失望。
今天的你,让我欢喜。
百感交集,不知所措。

如果不是矜持作祟,
如果不是死要面子,
我想我可以更勇敢。

再见了。

我,学会了。
我,明白了。
我,会努力的。



Sunday, December 06, 2009
11:50 PM
寻觅了那么久,你却不在那群人里。
觉得好失望,不禁骂自己怎么那么笨要在这里浪费时间?
这或许也只是自己的一厢情愿,执著相信一定能再一次的遇见。

期待、希望。瞬时间破灭了。
接踵而来的是失望,落空。。

“放弃吧。回家吧。即使见到了又能怎样?
你有勇气在往前一步吗?”

为什么?
为什么你偏偏要在我决定离开时,
决定彻底地把你从记忆里删除掉时,

又再一次的出现在我眼前?
(我知道这并不是你的错。)
而且是出乎意料的出现在我眼前.

你。.让我觉得。。不知所措。
是震撼?惊讶?喜悦?这我不清楚。
唯一搞清楚的是你。。
并没有我想象中的那么简单。。
你一点也不平凡。

没有勇气也就是失败的开始,
对你而言我只不过是个路人甲,

你永远都不会知道我的存在。

我想这应该也会使我最后一次看到有缘无份的你吧?
但我依然很满足了,就让我把这小小的回忆深深的藏在心底。
因为回忆是最美的。 :)


Tuesday, December 01, 2009
2:45 PM
重生的感觉真好!

好想出国走一走。。
有没有人要去啊?
香港?泰国?
韩国?台湾?
我要。。
买东西,吃东西。
买东西,吃东西。
买东西,吃东西。
买东西,吃东西!

好像没有人哦。
算了。。还是默默的回家吧。

再见啦。有缘无份的异国人。
祝你幸福快乐:)

中文系似乎挺不错的。
就试试看吧。






Thursday, November 05, 2009
10:51 PM
有没有人可以告诉我,
如何硬着头皮, 不要脸?

有没有人可以告诉我,
如何勇敢一点,大胆问?

有没有人可以告诉我,
如何打开话箧子,一起聊?

有没有人可以告诉我,
如何和你交朋友,异国人?

有没有人可以告诉我,
如何把握这最后的机会,不懊悔。


Tuesday, October 27, 2009
9:49 PM
dedicated especially for you.

oxx
xxx
xw

haha.:D


Monday, October 26, 2009
8:11 PM
我的天啊! 真的好险, 差一点儿就出车祸了。
或许是我太累了吧。 没注意到车子。。
还好只是手撞到车旁的后视镜。。
在踏多一步出去的话。。 我想现在我应该在医院了吧?

或许是因祸得福。。
茫茫人海中,我再度地遇见你。。
虽然距离很遥远,但我已经很满足了。


Thursday, October 22, 2009
10:04 PM
对于你的一切, 我一概不知。
只知道你就是你, 那么的独特。
你出乎意料的让我眼前一亮。
我也出乎意料的被你煞到。

真的好想再遇见你。
缘分,将注定一切。


Saturday, October 17, 2009
11:51 PM
So sad... I lost my specs that has been with me for more than 3 years.. didn't know my specs was so old..
I can't believe that I don't even know I dropped my specs along the way. The custom officer was laughing at me when he found out tt I just lost my specs.So malu.
I am like so blind now.

My cousin and I did something stupid at the kbox.. haha.I can't believe that she really dare. Oh wells.. like she say. I won't come back here anymore.

Hmm.. I think I am really good at PI-ing. I shouldn't put my talents to a waste. eh.. don't think this is a talent anyway. perhaps it is in some way.

Went procession today.. The uncle so funny. I should say 'kor kor' coz he say he only older by me by dunno how many yrs old. lols. Then he whether my dd is dd or kor kor.. WAHAHA.. I am so happy la.. coz he thought he is my kor kor.. Oh wells.. I do look young after all:)


Wednesday, September 16, 2009
10:45 PM
人可不可以不伪装自己?

我想很难。因为。。
每个人都有不能说的秘密。
每个人都需要自己的空间。
每个人都不想受到任何伤害。
每个人都害怕坦诚相对后而遭背叛。

所以
伪装是要保护自己,并不是不坦诚。
谁都不想当刺猬,但比起受伤。。
伪装成刺猬还是比较好的选择。


Sunday, August 16, 2009
5:59 PM

解釋?有必要嗎?
交代?又有需要嗎?
時機成熟了,
該知道的始終還是會知道。

知道了又如何?
不知道又如何?
日子還不是過得好好的嗎?
沒有任何一絲的打擾。


Saturday, July 25, 2009
10:09 PM
經一事、長一智。
我想人就是這樣。

人總是不斷地從事物中學習,
不斷的吸取經驗,
一點一點的進步,
慢慢的長大。


人生的道路總是跌跌撞撞,
有許多的不愉快,許多的不順心,
即使付出了全力,嘗盡了苦頭,仍然徒勞無功。

但還好總有些事還是能順著自己的意,
靠自己的努力,輕而易舉的達成目標。

人不害怕失敗,只怕一蹶不振。
只要永不放棄,有一天上帝還是會眷顧你的。
人不要想一步登天,因爲爬得越高,跌得越重。
只要一點一點地紮好步伐,有一天一定能鳥瞰全世界。
人不要失去后才後悔,不要把生活中的點點滴滴當成理所當然,
要懂得珍惜,因爲擁有的一切並非所以然。

只要懂得珍惜,就能擁有全世界。
只要懂得珍惜,將來不會有遺憾。
只要懂得珍惜,幸福就近在咫尺。

珍惜自己,珍惜家人,珍惜一切。


Tuesday, July 14, 2009
10:27 PM

無所不談的話題,讓我更了解你。
在一起的時候,讓我感到特別的幸福。
看著你的笑容,讓我感到加倍的溫暖。
這種感覺。。雖然有點矛盾。。
但真的好想永遠,永遠的把它鎖進心房裡。


不管是男生或女生,
只要是跟心儀的人在一起。
幸福可以那麽的簡單。

我知道。。
流言蜚語中的幸福得來不易。
所以我更珍惜和你在一起的每一刻,
珍惜這短暫的幸福。。






Sunday, July 12, 2009
8:37 PM
went swimming alone today.
feel so refreshed after 30 laps.
shagged but felt so accomplished:)

saw all kinds of ppl in the pool.
some who went there to model.
some who dunno how to swim but still act as if they know.
some who went there to date AND
some who went there to gay.

so there was this person..
who dunno how to swim butterfly.. end up swimming like a dead frog..
ha..ha..ha.

and there were ladies and gentlemen. who was there to model their figure and face.
though they were not really nice looking.

there was this bikini lady who was trying so hard to swim..
and managed to move half a lap..

and of course i see gal n guy making out.. as well as guy and guy having 'great time' there:)


Monday, June 22, 2009
10:43 PM
絕對男友
每個女生都想要。
但我想我並沒有那麽幸運。

看完了絕對男友。。
好感人。。
一個機器人能為他愛的人,
犧牲一切,甚至‘生命’。
我想跟機器人談戀愛,
永遠在一起也是一種幸福。
最起碼他對你是死心塌地,
永遠不會讓你難過。

我也想要個絕對男友。
可是他永遠都不能停止操作。
不然我一定哭死了..

絶対彼氏も欲しいです。 天城ニイト,左様なら!
速水もこみちはイケテル。


Sunday, June 21, 2009
9:54 PM
Went shopping today.
So happy.
Mango having sale.
Lots of cheap stuffs.
Bought a bag.
Super good bargain.
Thanks Zhe Ba Liao.


Wednesday, June 17, 2009
12:59 AM
OH MY GOSH!
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT WE DID IT!
I swore that i won't skate to the other end of East Coast Park again...
but in the end WE MADE IT ALL THE WAY TO CHANGI VILLAGE!

YES IT'S freaking TIRED.. but it's worth it:)
lols... i think we skate for like at least 8km. for sure.
and the motivation behind all these was none other than ...
NASI LEMAK. FROM CHANGI VILLAGE.
IT'S REALLY DAMN NICE
!

plus the yummy TP KOI bubble tea session after dinner..

Super shiok!
Whoohoo!!!
great workout!
great food!
great time!
great fun!
I LOVE SKATING!


ps: we'll go again next time k?!


Wednesday, June 10, 2009
7:31 PM
I dun like ppl to PANGSEH me.
And yet without an apology.
So ppl dun try it on me anymore.
If U THINK U WANNA 'SURPRISE' ME.
I REALLY DUN LIKE IT!

Got Married In Audi.
Had a beautiful Ring.
Played Basketball with friends.
Feel so tired and yet refreshed.
Think I am getting older.
Goin East Coast tomorrow.
Yeah! workout again!!!
I love skating!
Looking Forward for Johore Trip again!
Self proclaimed hols for 5 days! HAHA:)

Awaiting for chalet:) n the wine feast! Yoohoo!

PS: XX. Where is my johore trip?


Tuesday, June 02, 2009
10:44 PM
我剛剛看到了型男。。
又看到了帥哥。

帥哥是重點。
帥,高,一副聰明樣,
簡直就是緯玲幻想的對象。
可是曉賢說。。不配。

帥哥有在偷聼我們説話,
尤其是説到大提琴,

他側過頭來。
我們只有一片寂靜。

他真的很帥,
因爲曉賢被煞到了。

現實生活中真的是有帥哥的。


Sunday, May 31, 2009
11:53 PM
意義非凡的燒烤會,
驚喜連連的一晚。
一些善意的謊言,
讓我錯愕不及。

小小的生日蛋糕裏,
有你們滿滿的誠意。
我感受到了!
我有被感動。

快樂的一天,
讓我們有狂歡的藉口。
某人拼命的灌某人,
臉頰不經意的泛紅。
還好沒有不省人事。

一群真摯的朋友,
一份難得的禮物,
讓我有幸福的滋味。





12:03 AM
如果我变成回忆

累了 照惯例努力清醒着 也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了 心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了
听着 呼吸像浪潮拍动着 越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么 如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行 我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢 哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着 可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行 我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你

如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸缝隙
原来依然爱我的你痛苦 承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记

人生真的好短暫, 充滿了許多未知數。
被呵護,從未體驗過苦澀是不會懂得珍惜的。
我學會了珍惜,珍惜生活中的一切。
機會不是偶然,幸福是自己去爭取。
如果不去努力,眼前的一切將化爲泡沫。
有些人努力過,但卻失敗了;
有的人努力了,他們登上了巔峰。;
有些人甚至連努力的機會都沒有。
我比這群沒機會努力的人幸福多了,
至少我努力的證實了我的存在。
至於我存在的價值,仍然還沒有個答案。

我只知道我絕對不要變成回憶,退出了这场生命。

超感動的詞,動聽的歌聲,
很誠懇的一首歌。
仔細地聆聼,認真地反省,
我深深的被感動了,
臉頰也濕了。




Tuesday, May 26, 2009
11:26 PM
我學會了...

好心不會有好報,

不能太信任別人,

世界上沒有誰少了誰是不行的,

失望過後再次感到希望,

從彷徨中找尋曙光,

烹飪壽喜燒 . -.-ll


Monday, May 18, 2009
9:41 PM
沒事做的一天,
潮濕的一天,
悠閒的一天,
自由自在的一天。。

人生就是如此。

在家溫習功課,
在家上網看戯,
在家吃飽后睡。

這也是一種享受。


Thursday, May 14, 2009
11:41 PM
人生真的是無法預測。。
充滿了無窮的驚喜。
驚喜之餘。。也充滿了許多彷徨,迷惘。。
當人陷入彷徨,迷惘時。。
他該怎樣面對這一切?
又有誰能帶他沖出重圍??

運氣好的話,人或者會遇到他的幸運星。
運氣背的話,説不定又會殺出個程咬金。

若能越過圍牆,看到的一定是萬里晴空嗎?
又或者是一道又一道的圍牆??

人能夠選擇他想要的命運嗎?
要如何選擇才不會感到遺憾呢?
要做出正確的選擇真的那麽容易嗎?

或許根本就沒有選擇的存在。
它只不過只是人類製造出來的假象。
讓生活沒那麽枯燥乏味,讓生活多份奢望,
讓人類躲開彷徨和失望的避風港。


Monday, May 11, 2009
11:59 AM
祝願全天下的母親,母親節快樂!!

媽媽最棒!

媽咪,希望你今天玩得還開心吧:)


Thursday, April 02, 2009
6:33 PM


HOhoho!!! Been rather busy for the last two weeks... rushing out all the assig0nments for submission.. essays, projects and tests are really nothing but hassle. It's stressed up during that period of time... but luckily I had the strongest motivation of all !!! Which is my long awaited Yalun!!! whO came on 29th march.. Wahaha..

So I said to myself: Jana, please work hard for the sake of seeing Yalun. He wouldn't like to see someone who doesn't do her work.. although this is no fool proof. lols. and that's how i struggled through with my loads of work.especially when you have a project mate who doesn't know how to do her work and you always have to cover up her portion of work as well.

So the most exciting and elated moments are finally here. Yeah!!! and I can't believe that I did such things as well.. Haha..

29th March 2009
Woke up damn early to go q... reached IMM at ard 7.30am. so happy that I am quite front... around 10.30 we got shifted up to Fish n Co. so happy that i AM AT THE 3RD barrigate.. it was so near... HIM become a bit smarter by making lots and lots of number tags so that fans who wanted to go to toilet need not q up for a number... unlike the previous Concert Autograph. then did nth but wait wait wait till time's up.. The stupid Jiahui arh... she never chat with the fans before they come... and kept sitting down there touching up..what the hell!!! and suddenly they appeared.. dotx.
OH MY GOD YALUN IS SO SHUAI!!! tried to took videos of them but the stupid Calvin ifc ppl hold their banner so high up that keep blocking my view... so I shift to a corner just to see.. n i believed that Aaron see my board as he was waving in my direction. Coz nobody else was beside me. unless ppl behind me was holding his board as well.. That's not the point.. Suddenly, there was a big thunder and it rained heavily. The floor was flooded and everyone was trying to pick up their bag which was on the floor and avoiding the rain. So nice of Fahrenheit to remind the fans not to get wet. They sang 寂寞暴走and 默默。
so we squeezed and squeezed to the first row and keep taking pics.. We shouted for chun and jiro.. they are so damn nice..keep waving to us... Finally, we went on stage.. Oh wells, Yiru seems a bit dao this time round. I supposed he was too tired because he never say much except thank you. Then it was my Darling!!!! He signed and shook hands with me (though the rest too.. but I din exactly care much..muahaha)

綸:謝謝。。 me: 亞綸,加油! 綸:嗯。。 me: Aaron, dai daisukiyo!
綸:我也愛你
me:待會見 綸:好,待會見:)

Oh my god! I almost fainted when he say 我也愛你...coz with his attitude usually he would say 嗯。謝謝!omg! my first daisukiyo that I ever said to a guy... shy shy : at least gt a gd reply .. though i know its love for fans:) and the stupid part dai dai.. wat lao. a bit embarrassed. later he totx i wan to curse him sia. My poor Yalun complexion was deterioriating ..

So next's up was Jiro.. I was waiting to move to Chun's side... but Jiro was like looking at me with that kind of expression saying.."what do you have to say to me? other than Jiayou" it was quite an awkward scene.. so I ended up telling him that he was cute.. and he said 真的嗎? 真的咯!then to my amazement... he gave me a cute posed... he is really a nice chap. BUt feel so apologetic to my aaron.. lols

Told CHUN "apa cinta perdamu.." but he merely said "我也是和謝謝"..Oh wells. then the most funniest part was that. I am too happy over what Aaron said.. and ran down without taking my lyrics book.lols. and Chun was like asking is this yours?

I was so damn happy that Aaron signed the 平時有空版 which is the chinese word lun。。and not the簽名會人多版- Aaron..I thought that everyone had this signature. But my fwens who were 2 barrigates away told me they gt the Aaron signature after they went to the toilet break.and the Dong Undefeated also got Aaron.. so it was really damn lucky... mayb it was because I was holding his board?? dunno.. haha

After which we rushed to their another event which was at St James PowerHouse..and didn't know what actually happened at IMM. This was supposed to a happy event but turned out to be such a sad one. As there were too much people and had to rush down to Power House, they can't finish signing and of course a lots of fans were very sad and angry. Towards the end, it became a handshake session. Then worst of all, HIM used Yalun's stomach discomfort as an excuse to stop the event and obviously, Yalun were super pissed and said "不要把我當擋盾牌". I had never seen him so angry before and they were super apologetic. Luckily, I didn't get to see that if not I would be damn sad and would cry??


(look at this video-->http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DE3GrSV07-E)

PowerHouse wasn't too bad, real upclose though we waited for almost 1.5hr?? but it was worthwhile. They sang 寂寞暴走,默默 and 留下來..and this was also the first time i saw Yalun cry.. 爲什麽要說死呢?親人過世真的不好受..當時我也感同身受, 淚也不禁掉下來。。還好沒人發現。。


30th March 2009
went to chase after them again.. and this time by car..i can't believe that I am doin this. But it was a exciting and fun-filled day. I think it's really quite worth it. Followed him everywhere - Down Syndrome Association, SPH, Campus Super Star, Riverwalk Jumbo and then back to their hotel. Chasing was really fun and I think those bus uncle was really pros.. they knew their schedule and communicate through walkie talkie.. haha.. It's really an experience and I think once should try it once in their lifetime. Maybe next time i shall try chasing plane as well.. wahaha

DSA- Aaron did sth cute there .. haha " Pudding" and he gave that damn paiseh look which I love a lot! and managed to pass XiaoXian's meimei's letter to Dadong just before he went up to the car. Shouted to him while I and him stretched out to give and receive.. I was rather curious what actually she wrote in there coz I dun wan Dong to misunderstand. haha. at least he will know who gave that letter coz there was eye contact and he's bound to read the letter as there wasn't much in his hands.

SPH- did nth but wait.

CSS- this was quite lucky. I didn't have the tix at first and it was through someone that I got it around 6 plus. I already had the preparation to go back home to watch them on tv. They sang 3 song again, 越來越愛,寂寞暴走 and I think 默默?haha it was super noisy down there.. so I didn't really pay attention to what they were actually singing. But I THINK I heard live and cd. lols. Then everyone chiong back to the bus again the moment their performance ended... Chun was quite caring, told us not to run..

Jumbo- it was really amazing. The whole restaurant was like empty before they came. and after they reached, fans just went in to have dinner with fahrenheit as well. Though fahrenheit was in the vip room while they outside.Then there was this fans who touched Yalun from the arm to hands, he turned around with that kind of " Yewks! y did u touch me like this?!"Poor thing.

Last stop, back to hotel- Bid goodnight to Yalun. but he didn't hear it.. so I tapped him and he turned around to bid me goodnight too.. Oh..so sweet:)

Haha.. wanted to send him off at the Airport the next day but I can't woke up as it ended quite late on the 30th and I was super tired..The flight was 8.10 am so had to reach at 7am. I was super traumatised that..ARRGH! I can't even wake up even for Yalun... worst still.. Xiao Xian can wake up!!!

I thought that by putting my phone under the pillow I could wake up easily but to my dismal... I accidentally pressed the button and rejected Xiao Xian's call.. when I woke up it was already 7... The first thing I woke up wasn't Fahrenheit but... Oh Shit! Xiao Xian!

SORRY! XIAO XIAN! I DIDN'T DO IT ON PURPOSE!

Everyone called to bombard me why didn't I go and send him off... So I was truly traumatised and can't fall asleep anymore as well as XiaOxIAn and Weiling... so we went out for breakfast and crap... That's how I ended my Fahrenheit-chasing process. lols.

Now... after all these Happy moments spent with Dearest Aaron..now I had to spend with my 'dearest' books!






Wednesday, February 25, 2009
1:03 PM
christmas passed, new year passed, chinese new year passed.... haven't been updating my blog for so long..

Finally!!! I get to go back to indonesia!!! oh yes!!! what a nice holidays I had, although it is only ten short days. How I wished my holidays were longer.. We accompanied my grandma and grandpa to the old old kampong where they used to live and where my mama and papa grew up. It's really oh my god! If I were to grew up there, I think i might be bored to death or maybe diarrhoea till no shit.. lols. The place is called Selat Panjang, some island in the Indonesia Riau Province. It's freaky small and the people there lead quite a simple life. No shopping centre (place too small?), no amusement park (no security standard?), no swimming pool (the water is too dirty) etc..


The food there are all simple fares like nasi lemak, satay, fried noodles and etc. Thus, my didi and u conclude that no wonder the people there all live to a ripe old age? with little ailments.. haha :D Oh wells, my didi and I being grew up in a city cannot get used to eating the food and drinking the well or rain water there; ended up having diarrhoea and stomach upset. My mama brought me to eat the lontong sayur that she used to eat when she was small and my ahma showed me the place where their kway tiao stall used to be.. The trip was enjoyable especially with the bechak aka trishaw. The trishaw driver was damn pro, he can carry four passengers!!!! which is around 200 plus kg... can he's not even panting and sweatiing like mad.
I used to thought that there is only the traditional trishaw, those with the bicycle but now there is those with the motorbike! so diao! and it is super fast... likt tut tut.. haha. We also went to pay our respects to our yeye.. since it was also his hometown and went around visiting relatives. My gugu really very nice.. She was so delighted to see us and cooked a lot for us to eat and her cooking skills was superb! She gave us big hongbao though it was far off after new year. We wanted to reject it but she said something so diao : 姑姑要給紅包不用管是不是新年。lols


Back in batam, went to quite a lot of places.. and there's is this place called coastarina. It's a seaside places just like east coast, esplanade and sentosa. Though there's no flyover but there is ferris wheel which is abt 10 storey high?? and there is bumper boat, rolling ball etc.. all sortof fun activities. ate a lot of seafood.. got my favourite crab!!! haha! nonetheless, went to uncle's house to bbq and play with my super cute cousins! I just realised that I got plenties of cousins and nephews, nieces on my paternal's side. Imagine I have 9 uncles and 4 aunts, on average, they had 3 child each... oh my freaky god...

On the way back to Singapore, met this custom officer think age around 20 plus or early 30s who's so lame..Maybe he's too bored from his work and kept chatting with us. First is my mama.. he pronounce my mama's name while checking her passport and ask did he pronounce it correctly. So my mama was like yes yes ..so he say: wah auntie.. u everything also say yes... then he looked at my studentpass and wah: hou sei la.. uni student leh. which course? then i was like..lols.. there it is written on the pass. so he was like ooh.. and then started to test me. I didn't catch what he say as I was rather tired and feeling a bit unwell. so he said.. eh nvm.. nvm hear nvm..According to my mama, he was asking what is 10% of 100..lols

Then at the luggage checking point, there he was again. I wondered why is he there again? Is he that free?so he start crapping with me again la.. and this time round i caught wat he said: mm, how much is it after giving 10% to $148.. so i told him the ans.. Then he was like, mm, dun bluff me ar, if not i go to your house find u.. I was like about to say.. you didn't even know my address. on second thoughts.. he does have coz ofthe custom records. Then he said exactly what I was thinking lols... I should have say.. JUST COME IF U DARE!! lols. but forget it.. i was like damn tired.. n wanted to get out asap... so just keep bye bye... if not dunno what else he wanna say... Is working at the custom that free? Maybe I should go to... lols
At coastarina..
Photobucket real or fake? rolling ball!guess who's in there? rolling ball
How many people in there?I m the one insideLiqi:)smile Birdie

Back to the kampong..
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this is the legendary 'zhu long'.

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the tortoise is so damn big. wonder how old it is?

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my cute little nephews:)

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The rubbish chute.. so damn dirty imagine living next to it...

Photobucket"bechak"


Sunday, November 23, 2008
12:51 AM

期待。。
喜悅。。
心動。。
感動。。

11月16日

無法形容的快樂。。再此暖和了一顆冰冷的心。。
歷經了許多挫折,人生的起起落落。
熾熱的心被澆滅了, 也變得心力交瘁。。

對任何的事和物也只能抱著
既来之,则安之的態度。。
期望,希望根本就沒有它們存在的價值
更不用説是興奮與快樂。。

算了吧。隨你吧。你想怎樣就怎樣。。
這一切我根本就不在乎!!反正心也死了。
快樂。。再也不屬於我的。

又或者它從來就不屬於我。

心裏面的這些話從來都不想讓任何人知道。。
當然微笑就是最好的保護色。。

曾以爲破碎的心已無法體會到
什麽是快樂。。一份發自内心的快樂。。
什麽是激動。。一份讓人落淚的激動。。

如今,這種似曾相似的感覺又悄悄的。。
鑽進了冷落的心窩裏。。
只有你有如此神奇的力量,如此超凡的魅力。。

讓這顆心不在感到無比的冷漠。。
讓眼淚再度從迷惘的眼眶中落下
讓臉頰再度感受到眼淚的濕與熱。。

11月18日
看見你被愛你的朋友們如此的推擠著
心中感到莫名的痛惜,瞬間想要幫你擺脫這一切
從微笑,不笑,到再一次的露出一絲絲的笑容。。
這一切足以表露你剛剛的不滿。。
但你仍然好聲好氣的對這群不理智的朋友們。。
或許你當下是想要破口大駡。。
但是偶像的包袱卻讓你無法這樣做。。

偶像也是人。。難道就不能設身處地的替他們想想嗎?
一定要把它們惹毛了才知道他們其實也跟我們一樣。。
會生氣。。也需要一點點自己的空間。

你就這樣在一場混亂中。。安全的被護送到離境廳。。
揮著手,帥氣的臉孔帶著微笑跟大家告別。。
也讓這一次的旅程留下了完美的句號。










Monday, October 27, 2008
5:04 PM
日子過得好快。。轉眼間一個學期就快要過去了。。
又要考試了!!真討厭!

出席了新加坡金曲獎以及見面會。。只能說。。讚!
因爲有我最愛的劉力揚!! ㄏㄏ :) 女皇 万嵗!!
當然還有可愛的宥加咯!!!

見面會上。。力子新地替咩咩慶祝了她的生日。。
咩咩好開心。。

力子們好厲害。。能夠找到咩咩最喜歡的樂隊的LD.

讓她笑開懷。
更重要的是。。咩咩在金曲獎也獲得了新人獎。。

那應該也是最棒的禮物了吧?

好開心!見面會上和宥加揮手還以爲他沒看到。。
沒想到他以微笑和點頭回應。。簡直樂翻了。。
後來不知怎麽的。。他一直往我這方向瞪。往這裡笑。。
原來我是全場唯一一個隨著音樂搖擺雙手的笨蛋。。
真是的。。糗大了。。沒關係。。起碼博得君子一笑。。

到現場去觀看金曲獎和在熒幕上觀看果真的是不一樣。。
現場超high的!
我想以後我應該還會再去吧。。
還有阿。。。第一次目睹了五月天的Live。。
我想以後我應該會想要去他們的演唱會。。

你不是真正的快樂。。 真的感動了我。差一點就落淚。
還好 ㄍ一ㄥ 著了。。
我真的快樂嗎?

突然好想你。。亞綸。。
期待。。161108..


注意:朋友的狗狗不見了。。麻煩幫忙尋覓以下馬爾濟斯犬。。


-White Maltese, schnauzer cut, 1 ft long
-went missing on 27/10/08, 12 pm – 1pm @ Poole Road off Tanjong Katong Road.
- last seen @ the back alley near the bird shop.
-Name: Bi boy
- Microchip no: 982-009101556258
Please contact Peishi (96430753) if you have any news of him.


Saturday, September 13, 2008
1:19 AM
A new chapter of life unfolds. School started and one thing I can say is.... SIAN! Not because school is not fun, but school is filled with work and projects. Perhaps this happens to anyone too. Hmmm, make quite a few friends and maybe I can stop expanding my social circle in Uni life from here. After all, studies is more important. A new defintion of school in my thoughts- Pls attend lectures, hand in assignments on time and revise your work at home. Most importantly, participate ACTIVELY in tutorials. It was totally so different from how I defined school in the past - Pls pon your lessons if you don't feel like goin, do your assignments when u feel like it, sleep and play at home. Nevertheless, turn a deaf ear to what your tutors said and let them spoonfeed you with the answers.

Maybe it is with this lazy thinking that I ended with what I am today.. and should I say.. it serve me right? Perhaps. So we'll shall see whether this new definition I have for this new chapter in my life brings me good results? or I should say better performance as compared to the past.

Oh wells... my dear friend has left for China. As we have counted.. she would be back in another 126 days. Ah Hong ah, see how much we look forward for your return. Hope she didn't get too 'gek' when she see that momento tt we gave her. Haha. We put a lot of efforts in it kaes! Your friends aren't that heartless after all though we might sound so.. lols. Must say Thank YOU hor! and be thankful that you got such 'wonderful' friends! hmm.. :P Ah Hong ah, must take care!! I don't want see an Ah Hong go there but an Ah Hei come back. Remember to keep in touch !!! Last thing.. hope you would have a rendezvous there.. though you might not get to see Tay Ping Hui over there.. Haha..


Sunday, August 17, 2008
4:23 PM
Unknowingly it's been almost three months since i last update my blog..Three months-It been neither a long time or a short time. Things haven't change much for me. I m still me, kicking alive on this dimishing Earth. Ya rite,the usual me with that shattered face.

What am I actually searching for in life ? and what exactly are my dreams? What will my future be like? Nobody knows. Maybe there's someone up there who really knows but the someone just can reveal our destiny to us. Everyday seems to repeat itself. Eat, sleep work or study. Does that appeal to others as well.Perhaps, everyone is also leading the same boring life. Life really getting a bit meaningless for me .I am like an aimless soul wandering here and there looking for a bright light to lead me out of this dark period. Who will be the bright light for me? Sometimes, I really do envy people who have dreams. They know what they want to be in future and would work hard for it. However, how many people actually get to realise their dreams? One dare to dream but do they dare and have the ability to realise their dreams? and when one get to realise their dreams, would they ever be grateful to themselves and work hard to live in their current state. Or would they not be contented and continue to pursue even more ambitious dreams?? and one day forget about themselves and their original dreams.. Eventually. ending up with nothing and in a sorry state.

Yume, is it true that without you, life seems to be imperfect and lacking? MAYBE.
Yume, where are you?


Tuesday, May 27, 2008
8:42 PM
血流了,也止了
泪淌了,也干了。
脸上的伤也慢慢的愈合了。
但心里的伤也愈合了吗?

微笑只不过是为了掩饰,
哭泣是因为我真的受伤了。

一个不小心, 一个纯属的意外。
也不小心的改变了我的人生,
改变了我看着世界的眼眶.
改变了原来的我。

这个世界真的那么美好吗?
这个世界真的那么灿烂吗?
或许吧。

谎言让世界变得美丽。
谎言让世人变得脱俗。
但当你不再平凡,
美丽的谎言就变成残酷的事实。

这个世界是容不下丑陋,
容不下任何的不完美。
我的存在只是个累赘,
或许我跟本就不属于这个世界。
也许有一天再也不会有我的身影了。

发生了许许多多的事,
我已经心力交瘁。

我已不是原来的我了。


Sunday, May 11, 2008
12:47 PM
I fell n I m disfigured.
I hate my face .
I hate myself.
I hate to be in this world now.
I got no face to look at anyone.
Everything is gone
The old me is dead.
I am a monster .


Sunday, April 20, 2008
10:10 PM
Simply love my training session! It's so fun even though it's under the hot sun and have to wake up early in the morning to travel ard. The kids there are so lovable though some are annoying. I hate boastful kids!! Can you pls finish listening to the instructors before you wan to 'gei kian'.lols. Whatever... They are just kids.In addition, there are also parents who are so kiasu and so protective of their child. It makes the whole lesson so difficult to conduct.Oh wells, all parents dote on their child. Perhaps in the future I might be one too. Who knows?

I shall not go back home after the lessons at tampines before i go for the one at sengkang. It's such a waste of time. Next time shall just go shopping or find one place sit down play ds. Haha. My friends were also telling me to go and find my own friends who are staying at the east side. It would be better if my friends drive cause they can do me a favour if my friends are nice enough. lols. The problem is I dun have friends who can drive yet. Haha.. So they were saying then go find a rich bf who can drive. lols. I think they were shocked when i say I m nt interested in guys.. but i added on.. NOT INTERESTED in girls as well.. or rather nt interested in relationship. They were like whews. "Glad u said that. thought u were .." Lols. Furthermore, I am fat n ugly. I am not good enough for any guys and no one would want me as well. :) Haha:)

I WAN BUY NEW SKATES!!! BUT IT COST LIKE 300 BUCKS!!! Nt enough budget...ANYBODY WAN SPONSOR OR CHIP IN FOR ME?? haha.. I dun think anyone will want.. sobz... Suddenly there's so many things tt i want to buy now but I go no money!! Hongyee... i need a job DESPERATELY!!!! I want money!!! I WAN BUY SKATES!!! IT'S NOW TOP PRIORITY!!


12:39 AM
Today went to the so called interview for the skating instructor but it's nt interview at all . haha...just assess on how u can skate.. Basically i think i m a noob ... n yes i m ..though i m nt the lousiest.. so i don't think i m qualified to be an instructor. perhaps an assistant. maybe in the future if i practise hard enough....I go thr see the ppl there so pro i also feel so sia suey.. The ppl there are really nice.. so much betta than the so wateva... n the kids so cute... OH MY GOD! i love my future job.. Even though now still on training but i really enjoy it very much. It's like i get to interact with the kids, get to skate as well , know more friends and the thing i didn't expected was i get to polish up my skating skills n consult the pros what kind of skates to buy. I wanted to buy a good skates very long ago just that I din noe which kind to buy and now gt the pros to help me out.. Thanks very much... maybe soon I might get friends tt can skate together with me. yays ! We cn all skate together n exchange pointers. Simply love this job so much that i m willing to wake up damn early in the morning to go for all the training sessions. Today thought this angmoh gurl.. she so kawaii.. hope i get to see her again next wk.! n i nv realise tt teaching beginners can be so complicated. so much basic things even before the person learn how to balance n stand up! I still got more to learn! ! went play bball today with yx they all.. so fun...n we today kept disturb by kids. also dunno y ..then they all blame me coz today too hai zi yuan le.. even we go eat subway also gt kids come disturb us.. haha!!i m very happy now... i shall occupied myself with all the things that i like to do.. I no money le!!! ppl who wan give me or lend me money!!! sobz... kept goin on low budget activities... haha


Friday, April 18, 2008
7:59 PM
welcome back to the human world!! haha... finally i cn go back to the usual slacking life!! Today pia like siao just because i want to get away from tt idiotic so wateva. He's such a pest! well.. why the ppl there can be so amiable n so polite... with thanks n please here.. but only u . maybe u did just tt i dun understand ur way of communication. haha.. tt's too bad..
I WANT MONEY!!! I M SO DAMN BROKE NOW!! actually muz also thanks hy... gave me this job n help me earn extra .. haha... Anyway just to clarify, I am going for the interview to b a skating instructor.. i m nt pro lor

我在你的心裡到底算什麼?
給我多一點的關心,多一點的關懷難道就真的那麼難嗎?
你到底明不明白我要的是什麼?
我要的真得很簡單。。。
只是一份愛。。一份能暖和我心坑的愛。。
這真的有那麼難嗎?
你就不能多和我好好的溝通嗎?
一定要等到我向你開口你才會明白嗎?!
這一切或許都是我單方面的奢望。。也許你曾經努力過。。
算了。。至少我還有許多關心我的人。。
但他們真的在乎我嗎?
忽然覺得我只是一個人, 一個孤寂的人。。

看了亞綸的部落格后我覺得他真的好可憐。
身為歌迷的我們難道就不能體諒他嗎?
在怎樣說他還是個人。。
分別只是在於他是個公眾人物, 我們只不過是個無名小卒。。
亞綸。。你要加油!!不要去理會這些無聊不懂事的人。。